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Real tears flow in Isidingo tonight April 3, 2008

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The hurting in tonight’s episode was so real, reminding us all of this incredibly huge loss. As Horizon Deep loses Lee, as Barker loses his second child, we all feel the terrible pain of losing the actress we loved so much. RIP Ashley.

 

334 Comments for this post

 
Estelle Says:

Tonight I wept. How hard to watch the actors putting their real emotions aside, act and then let raw emotions take over.
My very best wishes to Ashley’s loved ones and colleagues – may things become gentler and softer for you every day.

 
Michelle Sterley Says:

Isidingo tonight was so sad, I still cant believe that Ashley will no longer be on our screens. I am devastated, why did she have to go? God has an Angel.
Rest in peace Ashley. May God also be with your family because if I am so hurt as a fan I dont know what your family is going through

 
ash.fan Says:

ashley… we miss you so much! you are amazing beyond words!!! you left us with so many wonderful thoughts and memories. you touched so many lives, this site proves it. and everyday we hear of someone new who adores you! if anybody logs onto this site, feel devastated by ashleys passing, share it with the rest of her heartbroken fans if you havent done so yet! lets keep the memory of ashley alive… CARPE DIEM!!!!!!!

 
ash.fan Says:

to paul a and francine… you personally knew ashley, i cant imagine how you must be feeling. i am at a loss for words, but know that you are always in my thoughts!

 
ash.fan Says:

to paul, s.miss her, tanya, kerry, natalie, kathleen and other fans! how are you guys keeping? all week i have walked with a heavy heart, i feel so sad…

 
SG Says:

Unfortunately, I missed last nites episode b’coz of LOAD SHEDDING. I am so upset, really wanted to see last nites episode. Do they show repeats over the weekend. This just gets harder and harder. Cannot imagine how Isidingo is going to go on. She brought so much to the sopie, that smile, sarcasm,the tiffs between her and Barker was the most I enjoyed. I am really going to miss her terribly. RIP Ashley.

 
still in shock! Says:

I also missed last nights episode due to load shedding. They do show the omnibus on sunday mornings at 10am. I am going to be glued – hopefully there is no load shedding!

 
still in shock! Says:

I am unable to access the video files on this site. can someone please tell me who to access these files?

thanks

 
Estelle Says:

As an avid fan, I am very aware of repeat broadcasts.
Isidingo is also rebroadcast on SABC3 the following day at 14:30. So last night’s episode will be on again today, and in the latter part of the omnibus on Sunday.

There are also repeats on SABC1 at 9:00 – these are broadcast 2 or 3 days after the episode aired on SABC3.

Re the video – if you are using a dial-up connection, it’s probably extremely slow as it is loading a huge file, and will pause every few seconds.

 
Tarry-anne Says:

LEE 3 GP BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN

IN THE BEAUTIFUL MOUNTAINS,
WHERE SHE WAS LAST SEEN,
LEE 3 GP, WAS ALL THAT REMAIN.
AS THE MERCEDES WAS PARKED ALONE
AND ITS OWNER, NOW GONE.

THROUGH THE MOUNTAINS,
MAJESTIC AND BEAUTIFUL,
DROVE DADDY BARKER
AND FAITHFUL FAMILT FRIEND ORLANDO,

AS THEY WENT LOOKING FOR MISS LEE.
AS IT WAS REPORTED THAT , NOW
LEE IS NO MORE
SHE IS GONE,
TOGETHER WITH HARRIET
I, BROKE DOWN,
AS THE REALITY HIT ME ONCE AGAIN.

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL PLACE,
FOR A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN
PERFECTLY CHOSEN, I MUST SAY.

WEPT BITTERLY, AS BARKER, CRASHED IN THE ROAD,
AS HE REALISED HE’S DAUGHTERS PASSING,
AND ORLANDO TOO, COULDN’T HANDLE IT.
ONCE AGAIN, WE ALL GRIEF STRUCKED
AS WE ALL SAY GOODBYE TO LEE.

ALL THAT REMAIN,
IS OUR MEMORIES OF LEE,
AND THE MERCEDES REGISTERED ‘LEE 3 GP’

GOODBYE OUR BELOVED LEE HAINES

 
Tanya Says:

Thank you Tarry-Ann.

 
kerry Says:

I watched last night’s episode. Its really sad watching something and knowing that the person they are referring to (ASHLEY) is really gone i still cant believe it. I wish her family all the best and i am truely sorry for their loss she was a great woman and i will miss you Miss lee (ashley) From Kerry a very sad fan

 
Tarry-anne Says:

Tanya

You welcome

Love Tarry

 
Darryl Dunn Says:

I must say that i was deaply touched last night in the manner in which Isidingo ended. My heart was very sore and it honestly feels as though i knew Ashley personally.

She was a beautiful young woman and was loved by all.

I hope the family is moving on and remembering her for the loverly person that she was.

RIP Leoni!

Darryl

 
Kim Steenhuis Says:

Hi Franni, hope u are doing okay! Sent u mail yesterday, hope u got it. Thinking of you. Stay possitive & strong. Lots of love Kim

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Ash Fan,

I am doing ok. Just really sad and upset as the reality hits me over and over again. Ash or Lee are not coming back. It is just so hard to bear.

How are you doing??? Have you been getting my emails???

Lots of love
Kerry

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Terry,

Thank you so much for that beautiful poem Lee 3 GP.

 
Shantha Rugnath Says:

To the cast of Isidingo as well as Lee’s family i pray that God blesses you all in your time of grief.
Lee, was a remarkable individual who has etched beautiful memories in our hearts forever. May you RIP.
Miss S. Rugnath – Durban

 
Tarry-anne Says:

Hi Kerry

Its a pleasure, after watching last night’s episode it all just came to me, LEE 3 GP.

U know i really miss her soooo much, and the pain
well don’t get me started.

to me Ashley always will be A LADY OF INSPIRATION
this is a poem i wrote for Ash, and she responded to me saying she loved it and that she’ll keer it always
i still have the letter Ash wrote me in PHOTO FRAME NEXT TO THE PIC SHE SENT ME.

 
sharon Says:

well done to the writers of isidingo,to let her go in such a beautiful place,as beautiful as she was herself. still struggling to realise she has indeed gone–so my thoughts are with her family & loved ones & of course to ,Franni Paul & all who loved her

 
Agnes M Says:

Last night episode was the saddest reality that SA tv has ever seen. Still can’t believe she’s gone…

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

Thank you.

You are so lucky to have had a letter from Ash and a picture.

I am missing her so much too. It is really hard to bear and the pain is so much.

Lot of love
Kerry

 
darelle Says:

Isidingo feels so weird without Lee in it. What a way to end it for Lee in Isidingo. It was very real, and it still feels so unreal that she won’t be back. To Ashley’s family and the cast of Isidingo, I share your grief over her. She was remarkable and had made a potive mark on so many people’s lives, and we all miss her so very much. I only hope for you that it will get better in time. Rest in peace Ashley!

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HEY KERRY

I KNOW GIRL, THE PAIN, THE HEARTACHE,
I MISS HER SO, MAN THIS IS HARD, NOT EVEN PRINCESS DI’S DEATH HIT ME SO HARD AS ASH’S DID, ISIDINGO WAS HARD 2 WATCH LAST NIGHT, BUT I BELIEVE THAT ASH WILL LIVE IN ALL OUR HEARTS FOREVER, U SHOULD SEE NY BEDROOM, I HAVE 6 POSTERS, THE MEMORIAL SERVICE PAMFLIT,THE PHOTO SHE SENT ME, AND A CALLAGE OF ASH. ASHLEY IS , WAS AND ALWAYS WILL BE MY NUMBER ONE ROLEMODEL, ACTRESS AND HEROINE

 
Muriel Obuile Says:

the episode was so touching i cried a lot. isidingo will never be the same without Lee Haines- Ashley Callie. i really loved her and i was her biggest fan and always will be. i will always miss her. My condolences goes to her family. Rest in Peace Ashley

 
Uresh Says:

Hi Ash Fans

Last nites episode was just to sad, i wept cos it was so real for us all,what a stunning location just like beautiful Ash,to her family,cast members & all who adored her stay strong & keep her memory alive.RIP Lee.

Thanks
Uresh-Dbn

 
Rita Says:

I watched last night episode and when Barker got out of the car and he’s heart was bleeding over the death of Lee (Ashly). She was a remarkable and beautiful person. I’ll be sure too watch the omnibus on Sunday @ 10H00 am. It was like i could feel Barker ‘s pain.

 
Paul Says:

Hey Gang,

How are you all doing? Me, not so good. Not only was Thursday incredibly heartbreaking, and very real, Friday we had load shedding. So I’ve just watched the Omnibus now. Gosh, Friday’s episode was just as hectic!! This is intensely painful … Just as I thought I was a getting a little stronger, and somehow coping, it has knocked me off balance all over again.

And yes, it was all real for the actors. It was not acting. I was finished when Barker phoned Harriet and she broke down. And in Friday’s episode, when Maggie & Alec broke down. It was very disturbing.

Ashley was the greatest Actress S.A. has EVER had! She inspired me in so many ways, and has brought a lot of us together, which is magical. I will never forget her, and I’ll live by her example, by living life to the fullest. I miss you, Ash, so much!

To Lauren, John, Mr & Mrs Callie, Deyon & Kids – this week must have been very difficult for you all, too. I keep asking myself, if we as her dedicated fans, are so destroyed, how must you all be feeling? My thoughts and prayers are with you all today, and everyday.

Carpe Diem!

Paul.

 
Estelle Says:

During the omnibus I sobbed … again.
I keep reminding myself that we need to tell people that we love them. Now, hnot when it’s too late.
Plus – we each need to live each day to the fullest. As Ashley (and others) have said – seize the day …

 
Marina Says:

Dit was die ‘n baie eerbiedge manier om Lee uit te skryf veral in so ‘n mooi deel van ons land. Rus in Vrede ons gaan jou baie mis!!! :-/

 
still in shock! Says:

hi all,

I watched the omnibus as I missed a few episodes this week. I cried my eyes out – what a beautiful lcation. What a heart breaking loss – I am really still in shock. Isidingo without her is empty – her gracefullness is sorely missed by me.

I just dont have the words anymore to express the ssense of loss I feel. I pray that her family and loved ones are given the strength and courage to come to terms with this loss.

I am still battling with the cruelty of her being taken away in the prime of her life……so unfair…..why?!!!!!!!!!!!

 
Muzi Says:

Ash, will forever be missed gal. Last thurs & friday I had to re-live the heartache of your passing. You have left a foot step in my heart that will never be removed.

 
still in shock! Says:

I was out of the country for 3.5 weeks in march and missed all those episodes where she took back the CEO position. Does anyone know if I can get hold of previous episodes?

 
Portia Mokubela Says:

seeing Barker cry it broke my heart in million pieces. Losing Ash yet again. It was way too painful to watch. Will miss her dearly. Love you Ash. RIP

 
kerry Says:

I know what you guys mean. I watched wednesday thursday and friday and everytime they mention lee’s name it brings tears to my eyes. She was taken before her time i personally feel. To her family i send my deepest condolences as watching that could not have been easy. RIP ASHLEY YOU ARE REALLY A STAR OF MZANZI. you will always be remembered

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Still in shock,

If you have DSTV go to channel 286 Sabc Africa and watch the isidingo onimbus on saturday’s between 9 and 11. They are a month behind us, so we can still see Ash on there.

I see Isidingo is also on that channel weekdays at 5pm.

Hope you are doing ok. I am still missing Ash Dearly and i don’t know how i am ever going to get over this.

Kerry
xxxxx

 
Kathleen Says:

Hey Everyone!
Wow, but time is passing by so fast.
Yesterday when I was catching up with the Isidingo Omnibus, it just seems so wrong to me. How can everything just continue as usual while there is such a big part missing!

I have followed Ashley’s career since she started on Isidingo. Now, Lee is gone and I can’t help but think – “What now?”

I’m not a religious person so I can’t answer the deep questions, but I know that one day, she will be reunited with her loved ones.

Ashley, we miss you. We miss your art and we miss your talent. Above all else, we wish that you could still be with your loved ones.

We will never forget you Ash!

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hi Kathleen,

Thank you for your post.

That is what i am asking myself, how can life gone on while as you say a big part is missing.

I am so happy that i am not the only one that feels this way.

I have also followed Ash’s Career and loved her for as long as i can remember and i am still coming to terms with all of this.

Isidingo is just so empty and lifeless without her.

Hope you are doing better.

To the Callie family, Friends, Fans and everyone who knew her, you are all in my thoughts and prayers today and always.

Missing you stacks Ash and i know you are at peace now and watching over us all.

Lots of love always
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Paul Says:

Hey Kathleen & Kerry,

I couldn’t agree more with you guys.

Thursday and Friday knocked me right off my feet – it was so devastatingly painful and upsetting. I cried myself silly. Just as I was getting a little bit better, feeling slightly stronger, it goes bad again. And, you guys must know that all those scenes was not acting. That was raw emotion!

I was finished when Barker phoned Harriet on Thursday afternoon. How beautiful was the setting and the music?? And Friday was just as bad, especially with Alec & Maggie’s meltdown.

I’m still not over this tragedy. I’ve loved her for as long as I can remember, and I’m still very grateful that I have an Autographed Photo. At the same time, I regret not going to La Vista Social Club earlier, so many people have met Ash there and spoke to her! I wish I made more of an effort.

I also wish there was same way that we could get a hold of her family – even if we could just send them an email. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of them.

My Ashley Callie Rose Bush has got 6 little rose buds that have formed, which I’m so happy about. With all this rain, I expected the worse! But, it’s like a sign from Ash from up above … Sob!

Dearest Lauren, John, Mr & Mrs Callie, Deyon & Kids – my thoughts and prayers are still with you, today … everyday. I hope you are all doing okay.

Ashley, I miss you more and more as the days go by.

Carpe Diem!

Paul xxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Paul,

I too regret not going to La Vista Social club and I also wish i met her but now it is too late and that is really heart breaking for me.

I miss her more and more each day and watching isidingo without her is really hard.

How are you doing???

I am doing fine. Did you get my email??? and have you replied to it yet???

Hope you are doing ok.

Missing you loads Ash and I will always always wish you were here with us.

Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Barbara Says:

Gut-wrenching to experience, actually feel Robert Whitehead’s (Barker)real pain this evening. “”She shouldn’t be resting! She should be here, working. She was one of the most promising giants of her generation”.
So sore, so damned tragic and sad.

 
EON Says:

WELL DONE TO THE ISIDINGO TEAM, CREW ,WRITERS, EVERYONE AND THE ACTORS FOR THAT SPECTACULAR EPISODE WHERE LEE PASSED AWAY. I WAS AMAZED WITH THAT EPISODE.

I WATCHED IT AND TRIED TO BE STRONG, BUT WHEN THAT SAD MUSIC STARTED PLAYING ,TOGETHER WITH BARKER CRYING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD, I COULDN’T BE STRONG AND CRIED … A LOT.

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL PLACE SHE WAS SURROUNDED BY WHEN SHE DIED IN ISIDINGO.

THAT SOUND TRACK WAS AMAZING (WHERE DO THEY GET THAT MUSIC?) AND WHERE WERE THE SCENES SHOT?

ASHLEY CALLIE- YOUR POSTERS ARE STILL ON MY WALL AND EVERY MORNING ,WHEN I WAKE UP , I STARE AT YOU WITH THAT BEAUTIFUL ,CHARMING SMILE OF YOURS- KNOWING THAT YOU ARE EXPERIENCING YET ANOTHER DAY IN PARADISE … WITH GOD. MAY YOU REST THERE IN PEACE.

I’M ALSO ASKING THE PRESS TO LEAVE THE STORY ABOUT ASHLEY’S ACCIDENT THAT NIGHT AND STATING THAT SHE MIGHT BE GUILTY. IT WONT HELP TO THROW AROUND ANY ACCUSATIONS NOW. LET’S JUST FOCUS ON HOW BEAUTIFUL SHE WAS … AND STILL IS.

TO HER FANS… REMEMBER… ASHLEY IS NOW RESTING … IF SHE SURVIVED THE ACCIDENT, SHE WOULD STILL HAVE BRAIN DAMAGE AND WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO CONTINUE WITH HER DREAMS… AND THAT WOULDN’T BE A LIFE.

NOW SHE’S WITH GOD.
AS I TYPE THIS, TEARS FLOW ONTO MY KEYBOARD.

FAREWELL ASHLEY … ‘DONT CRY FOR ME …. ARGENTINA’

EON

 
still in shock! Says:

how true barkers words were in the series as well as her own life. Ashley Callie was without doubt the most promising giant of her generation.

the cruelty of this loss is just too much to bare…I am happy to believe she is in paradise – I guess the ones she left behind are in hell trying to deal with her untimely departure. *sigh*

 
still in shock! Says:

well – we should all brace ourselves for tonight – the funeral is going so hard and the emotions will be real.

 
Tarry-anne Says:

ASHLEY U ARE UNFORGETTABLE,

MISS U LOTS

 
Tarry-anne Says:

TO ALL OF US WHO LOVES LEE HAINES, ITS HER FUNERAL ON ISIDINGO TO NIGHT, BE STRONG, TO ALL OF WHO MISSES LEE, SHE’S IN OUR HEARTS FOREVER, TO THE CALLIE FAMILY, YOU IN OUR TOUGHTS, HEARTS & PRAYERS

LOVE TARRY

 
Tanya Says:

Eon, what a beautiful message!
Thank you!

Yes, tonight is going to be so hard to watch! Gosh!
Let us all pray for Ashley’s family, they still need our prayers every day!

Mr & Mrs Callie, Lauren, John, Deon and kids…
May God grant you all the strength to face every day, and know we loved Ashley (and always will) with all of our hearts! God bless you all…

Take care*

 
Tanya Says:

Thank you Tarry!

Take care*

 
Tarry-anne Says:

THANK YOU TANYA

TAKE CARE,

 
Tarry-anne Says:

FOR ASHLEY……….LOVE TARRY-ANNE

LIKE THE BUBBLES IN A BOTTLE CHAMPAIGNE.
YOUR PASSION FOR LIFE IS COMPARED.

TO A SUMMERS DAY
I, COMPARE THEE, ASHLEY
AS SHAKESPEAR OUTLINED IT SO PERFECTLY.
UNFORGETABLE, THATS, WHAT YOU ARE
NOT ONLY ACCORDING TO NAT KING COLE,
BUT TO ALL OF US WHO LOVE YOU.

YOU’RE SENSE OF HUMOUR,
ADMIRED,
YOUR STRENGTH AND BEAUTY, ADORED

ASHLEY, WE REMEMBER YOU.

 
Peggy Says:

Yes guys…tonight is the night that we have to say farewell to our beloved angel.I am crying since this morning.Tonight is really gonna be sad.We as fans need to be there for each other.Ash…I still love and miss you so much!!!

 
Kim Steenhuis Says:

Hi to all Ashley fans & friends, ive been pacing & preparing for this day, the final goodbye to Lee, but one is still dreading the thought! So this is to all of u to say that im thinking of all of u & u are all in my thoughts, especially as tonights Isidingo is upon us. Say your final goodbyes in your own specil way. Be strong & take care. From one of Ashleys longing & heart broken fans. Love you always my beautiful rose ASHLEY CALLIE

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

I wish I could turn back time and just … I can’t believe she is gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They were not acting – nothing was acting tonight. My heart is so full of pain – it feels like I can just die myself.

How could this happen? I am so angry, so sad, so hurting. I truly miss her – I don’t know how we going to cope without her.

ASHLEY CALLIE will truly be missed, she was so loved!

 
Gail Robinson Says:

Once again well done to Isidingo writers and actors – Ashley got a beautiful and dignified farewell tonight. Robert used very much the same words as he did at Ashleys memorial service – said with the same passion and sense of loss. love and strength to Ashleys family and all who knew and loved her – this does of course include all of us fans who are still heartbroken at her untimely passing.

 
lyn Says:

i think she would want everyone to remember her for her talent and brilliant personality. She had an amazing bubbly personality and would not want masses of people focusing on her passing, but rather be happy that her short life impacted profoundly on so many people. And take solace in knowing that she is in a better place.

 
Kim Steenhuis Says:

Dear Graham, Claire, Lauren & John Callie, thank you that i could share in your daughter & sisters life. She was an inspiration to me & somebody i admired & looked up to. She will forever be in my heart & mind. She is gone but not forgotten. My thoughts & prayers will always be with you all. Ashley, this is my final goodbye to u my beautiful rose, keep smiling down from above & i will always see your star shinning brightly. Rest in peace my precious one, love to you always. CARPE DIEM

 
Paula C Says:

Tonights episode of Isidingo really hit me hard. I can’t believe we will not see Lee again. To the Isidingo cast I can only imagine how hard it must have been for all of you. What a magical friend you have all lost. Ashley you are still the most beautiful women I have ever seen. You were such a gently heart. I will miss you in my lounge every night. Ashley I will miss you but never forget you. You are in God’s hands now. Take care precious angel.

 
christine Says:

i am a foreigner living in SA, and since i moved to SA six years ago, i have been a huge fan of isidingo. I was out of the country when i heard the news of ashley’s death, and tonight i couldnt help but feel the pain her fellow actors must have felt when they shot tonight’s scene. i could barely watch due to the tears that clouded my eyes.

Ashley was a beautiful elegant woman. I will miss her a lot, may her soul rest in peace.

 
teresa Says:

It was very hard to watch tonights episode . it was real emotion and my hat goes off to all the actors ..Robert most of all .. it must have been incredibly hard to do those seens to let yourself feel all the emotion again..i couldn’t help but with you.. well done to the writers it was very apt for a beautiful woman .. will miss her …..

 
Wes du Toit Says:

I am still crying my eyes out… after tonight’s funeral episode.
Why God? Why her?? Life is so cruel….
May Ashley and Lee rest in peace…

You will never be forgotten!!

 
Kathleen Says:

OOI! And there I went crying like a baby last nigh!
Dear Ashley
Today is our first day without Lee and it feels like the first day without you all over again! I know for a fact that you are in a beautiful place. A place where you can see your loved ones and us, you loyal fans. A place where you know and see all things.

We all so with you were here with us, but we also know that it was your turn to show those in heaven the beauty, understanding and love you have shown here on earth!

SO girl! Show those angels just how it is done!
We will always love you and miss you and be your loyal fans!

Love you always

Your fan
Kathleen

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI EVERYONE,

BEAUTIFUL WASN’T IT, VERY PAINFUL REALLY,

WELL DONE TO ISIDINGO WRITERS, IT WAS ALL LEE,

THANK YOU :(

LOVE TARRY

 
SG Says:

Last nites episode was absolutely beautiful. Cannot imagine how the actors got thru this, its almost 2 months and people are still in shock and still in mourning. I must also compliment the Producers, writers and the actors, they really did justice to Lee’s memory. Cannot believe that this is the end to her. RIP Lee/Ashley u will always be remembered for touching so many lives even though we did not knw u personally, u have made a huge impact on all of us.

 
Anonymous Says:

Last nights episode of Lees funeral was very painful. When I heard that Ashley died I was shocked and hurt, but she still appeared on Isidingo afterwards so its like she was not really gone. Watching her funeral, it was raw emotion and reality that she is really gone. Watching the actors like Barker, Orlando, and Harriet you cant help feel their pain, because they really are saying goodbye. Its amazing how some ones death can affect you even though you neva knew them. Her funeral on Isidingo was so beautiful and dignified and so fitting for tv and reality. At the graveyard the flashbacks of Lee brought tears to my eyes and a feeling of deep loss. I compliment the producers of Isidingo on an exceptional episode, the music and the way they chose our beautiful Lee to be laid to rest. I hope personnally that with time this pain and missing her on Isidingo will get easier. To Ashley r.i.p u were the epitomy of elegance, grace and beauty.

From Heartbroken fan

 
darelle Says:

Last night’s episode of Isidingo brought the pain back all over again, and I still cannot believe she is gone. Isidingo feels so strange without Lee. To the whole team of Isidingo, on screen and off screen – thank you so much for a beautiful episode, which at the end was dedicated to her memory. You have done a brilliant job, and I am sure it was not at all easy for you to do this. It’s been two months, but it still feels like yesterday. We will all remember Ashley for the lovely, beautiful, elegant and graceful person that she was. She has left a mark in my soul that can never be erased, even though I did not know her personally. Ashley, we love you

 
still in shock! Says:

those flash backs at the end had me in tears – she just looked so beautiful – to see her again after a week felt so good! its so unfair that she had to go – rest in peace princess.

 
Shabnam Says:

Last nights episode of Isidingo left me in tears – literally weeping. I did not know Ashley personally but she became a part of my life everyday at 18:30. Thank you to the producers of Isidingo for the beautiful tribute to a gracious, gorgeous soul. Her smile was truely infectious and seeing it yesterday reminded me of how much it is actually missed.

RIP Ashley and know that you are missed.

 
stephanie Says:

Ashley has been part of our household since the day she dominated the tv soapie world.Her grace and absolute beauty is sorely missed.I am a big fan who is still trying to come to term with what happened.Tomorrow has not been promised to us,live today to the fullest.Ashley,rest in peace,South Africa mourns your loss.To the Callie family,my each tear be filled with good memories of this blessed woman!!!!

 
tessi Says:

Watching last night’s episode of isidingo was heart-wrenching and left me feeling raw all over again. Its seems such an injustice that all the young, beautiful people are taken in their prime, people who leave a gaping hole in what was once an amazing life. To the Callie family, I feel your pain, to my beautiful bro in heaven, I love u more today than the day u were ripped from my life, just like Ash. Ride on, sweet brother, miss u much xxx

 
tessi Says:

The people we love don’t fade away, they walk beside us every day. The love inside, u take it with u when u die…

Sleeping beauty, ASHLEY CALLIE… One more angel in heaven, one more star in the sky…

15.02.2008 Sleep well, precious one…

 
Lisa Ann Says:

Does anyone know the name of the beautiful song that Letti sang at Lee’s funeral?

 
Paul Says:

Last night’s episode was so heart aching, and powerfully upsetting. How difficult it must have been for all the actors to go through all of this again. We saw not only a Superb Tribute to our darling Leonie, but we saw REAL acting & REAL emotion.

I was crying non-stop, and as Kim mentioned, we had to say Goodbye all over again. It was really so … unreal. I must commend the crew, too, for such a brilliant job. Thanks Miss Pumla Hopa! You guys did a fantastic job! And Letti’s song and the instrumental music was amazing.

Ashley, I will never ever forget you. You had such a huge impact on my life. I treasure the Autographed Photo I have of you. I will also follow your example by living life to the very fullest!

To Mr & Mrs Callie, Lauren, John, Deyon & Kids – I hope you are all doing okay. There is not a day that goes by that I’m thinking of you, praying for you. I cannot imagine what you all must be going through.

Rest In Peace, our Beautiful Ashley Callie!!

Carpe Diem,
Paul

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

With the new Isidingo start I am so angry with – they could have included only one picture of her – just in memory but they had to take it out all! I am so angered by that. At least when Isidingo started we could have seen our Soap-Princess and now we have nothing.

I prefer not to talk about her otherwise I get so emotionally.

I miss her so!

 
Bianca B. Says:

Last night was so incredibly sad, but so beautifully done. I really do think the cast and crew gave the best possible tribute. It was especially sad as everyone placed the lilies on her coffin and remembered her in their own ways…
oh ashley please forgive us, but we’ll never be able to let you go.

 
Khanyisa Says:

i understand bianca. but they had to remove it at some point. we can always go to her website to view her picture. im thinking of printing some pictures and put them in a memory box

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HORIZON DEEO SAYS GOODBYE BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN
ALL GATHERED TODAY,TO BID FAREWELL.
FOR A LOVED ONE LOST,
A DAUGHTER MOURED.

LEE HAINES REACHES THE LAST MILR OF THE WAY,
AS ALL OF THE DEEP LOSSES A LOVING SOUL,
WHO PROTRAIT ‘THE ICE MAIDEN’ GRACEFULLY

BARKERS LITTLE BITER, NOW NO MORE
A PAIN SO DEEP
REACHES THE ROOT WHERE LOVE BEGINS,
THE LOVE WE HAVE FOR LEE

AS THE COFFIN CAME TO ITS RESTING PLACE
AND PRECIOUS MEMORIES BROUGHT TO LIFE
AS THE COFFIN IS LOWERED INTO THE GRAVE

I ONCE WAS TOLD
A CEMATARY IS THE RICHES PLACE
FOR IT HOLDS DREAMS
IT HOLDS DEAR LOVED ONES
AND NOW
HOLDS OUR DEAR LEE HAINES.
HORIZON DEEP SAYS GOODBYE,
AS NOW YOU, LEE TO REST WE LAY,
A FINAL GOODBYE,
AS SCENES BEFORE US REPLAY

WE ALL SAY GOODBYE TO LEE,
AND ONE LAST TIMEE
WE BID FAREWELL TO ASHLEY…

LOVE ALWAYS TARRY

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry Anne,

Thank you so much for that lovily poem.

Lots of love
Kerry

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Wednesday’s episode was really heart breaking for me. The reality of it, Hit me really hard.

I still can’t believe that they are gone and never ever coming back and to me that is really hard to bear.On Tuesday it will be 2 months since Ash past away. I can’t believe how time flies.

Dear Ash,

I am really missing you more and more as the days and month go on and i don’t think this pain that I am feeling will ever go away.

I know you are watching over all of us and you see what is going on down here.

You will never be forgotten and for me you will always be my no 1 role model and thank you so much for inspiring my life and making me a better person.

To the family, friends, isidingo cast and fans, my thoughts and prayers are with you always.

All my love always
Kerry
xxxx

 
Tarry-anne Says:

thanks Kerry

love Tarry

 
jackey Says:

Lee (ashley)was everything a women should be. everynight i would watch her, and want to be like her. my brother had the same injuries from a car crash and didnt make it either. ashley if you are with him, tell him i miss him so much each day. i know the pain that the callie family is going through. ashley was remarkable, professional and ver smart. we love you ashley

 
jackey Says:

wow, my entire family waited patiantly for this episode, we sat in silence as we watched isidingo say goodbye to ashley, the tears flowed and our hearts ached. when they showed her at the end we all broke down and cried. Ashley it is amazing how you touched our hearts. i dont think there is another actress who touched so many peoples lives personally…

 
Tarry-anne Says:

hay jachey

no i don’t think there is another actress like ash who touched anyone as much as she touched us all, clealy Ashley was not just isidingo’s leady lady but our own Coral Rose, PRINCESS OF HEARTS,

ASHLEY, I MISS YOU SO MUCH

LOVE FOREVER
TARRY

 
Tarry-anne Says:

AH! CORRECTION PEOPLE ASHLEY CALLIE IS THE QUEEN OF HEARTS :)

 
Tanya Says:

Thank you for the beautiful poem, Tarry!
Keep well!

CARPE DIEM!

 
Nosie Says:

Hi guys I just discovered this site and im lost for words… all I can say is …a phenomenal tribute for a phenominal woman…love and miss you ASH.

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

I think Lee Haines was everything we all wanted to be – the personification of all our hopes for ourselves. How will we continue without her. I am angered with the lost we suffered.

 
Jane Says:

I so agree with you Bianca. I have just watched the omnibus and I must commend the Producers on the lovely tribute to Ashley at the end of Wednesday evenings show. It was so beautifully done and made me realize all over again the enormity of our loss. The song that Letti sang at the service was just unforgettable and so befitting for Ashley. I wonder if it was written especially for her. It is such a sad time for all of us fans, not to mention those who were close to her. I have a heavy heart each time I think about it. Isidingo is going to be very hard to watch without her but I will still watch in support of Ashleys colleagues who must feel so heartbroken. I will never forget her.

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

What is really sad is whenever I see Dineo I get so angry… cause I don’t hope they going to try to make her into Lee or use her character to fill the gap like being Barker moral ground now like Lee was. I still can’t believe she is gone. I was working the whole day on a tribute for her that I uploaded at Youtube from photo’s I got here and on the internet. As soon as it is viewable I will let you know.

Regards Bianca (biancamoll@telkomsa.net)

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

Hi,

I made this for her … hope you guys can view this -

http://www.youtube.com/user/BiancaMoll

I am only sadden that all we have is just photo’s and memories since youngsters could not drive and had to drink and then had to be in the streets and kill our lovely Ashley (Leonie).

I will always miss her.

 
Natalie Le Clue Says:

Bianca, that is just the perfect song with the most fitting words….

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

I know … I was thinking what can I do to make me feel better and then I did that little tribute to her and the song was easy since it describe everyone’s feelings currently. But it is sad that Ashley will never see it, that she will never know how much she was adored… she will look from heaven down upon us and see but it would have been great if she could see when she was alive. Death is so final – a concept that I struggle with.

 
Tanya Says:

Bianca, Thank you so much for the beautiful tribute you made! She is (was) such a beautiful woman! Still can’t believe she is gone. Tomorrow will be 2 Months…I can’t believe it!

Mr & Mrs Callie, Lauren, John, Deon and Kids, You are in our prayers every day! We pray that you find the strength each day. May God bless you all!

Ashley, we miss you so much! We can’t believe you are gone, we don’t understand why, why you, why so soon! We will always love you! Wish you were still here….

Take care*

 
Tarry-anne Says:

thank you Bianca, it is beautiful

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

Yes, her love-one I keep in my heart and I pray for their healing but healing will only come through time – if the fans feels so hurt, we can’t imagine what pain her family, boyfriend is going through.

I miss Ashley – Lee so much!

 
Kerry Gray Says:

I have nothing new to say except that I miss Ashley / lee so much and it is getting more and more as time goes on.

i can’t believe it will be 2 months tomorrow. Time just goes by so fast.

Miss you always Ash.

 
Paul Says:

Dearest Ashley,

Today is 2 months since you were taken away from us, so tragically.

It still feels like yesterday, since we heard the dreadful news. It was the worst news ever … And I can’t believe that you are gone.

I miss you more and more as the days go by. I do not agree with people who say that it gets better with time. I actually think it gets harder. I think you somehow learn to cope, but it certainly doesn’t get better.

I must say I’m doing a little better, since making friends with these great people, and we are proud to call ourselves the Ash Gang. They have been not only great friends, but great support, too.

I miss seeing you on “Isidingo”, miss seeing your face on the “Isidingo” theme, and seeing you in magazines. The reality that you are gone, has not sunk in, and I cannot accept that you are gone, I’m sorry.

I will follow your example by following your example by living life to the very fullest and appreciating all the little things in life.

To Lauren, John, Mr & Mrs Callie, Deyon & Kids – My thoughts and prayers are still with you at this time. I cannot imagine what you all must be going through. I always say to myself if we as Ash’s Loyal Fans feel so destroyed, what must you all be going through? I can’t imagine. I hope you are all okay, and there is not one day that I don’t pray and think of you all.

Rest in Peace, our dearest Ash …

Carpe Diem.

Paul.

 
Di Says:

I was watching a recording that I taped with Ashley winning the SAFTA award and it was quite strange to hear her say in her speech that we must buckle up and drive safely home as our work is not finished yet and then she goes and dies in a car accident.
My thoughts ever day are for Mr & Mrs Callie,Lauren, John and Deyon. May she rest in peace.

 
Tarry-anne Says:

ASHLEY REMEMBERED BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN
15/4/2008

TODAY, TWO MONTHS AGO
WE SAID GOODBYE,
TO YOU, PRECIOUS SOUL.

THE GAP YOU LEFT, STILL STRONG
TREARS FLOW, WE MOURN YOU STILL
TIME PASSED SINCE THAT TRAGIC DAY
BUT, OUR HEARTS, STILL THE SAME.

FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY,
YOU’VE GONE AWAY
AS I WISH, YOU
WERE STILL HERE TODAY,
FOR YOU, OUR CORAL ROSE
I LIT A CANDLE, IN REMEMBERANCE OF YOU.

A FLAME THAT’LL NEVER FADE,
THAT HOLDS MEMORIES OF YOU
A BRIGHT LIGHT IN OUR HEARTS
WILL THIS CANDLE BE
AS YOU, WITH YOU PASSION FOR LIFE
BRIGHTENED OUR LIVES,

FOR TODAY, TWO MONTHS AGO
GOODBYE, WE SAID
TO YOU, PRECIOUS SOUL,
AND UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN…
OUR HEARTS REMAIN WITH YOU.

MISS YOU ASH.. MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY
LOVE FOREVER TARRY

 
Peggy Says:

Hi there Ash fans…I can’t believe it’s 2 months that our beloved angel is gone.I am still feeling so sad and empty inside.It seems like nothing matters to me anymore.I don’t know when or how I ever gonna get over her passing on.They say that “time heals”…but I don’t know.My heart goes out to Ash’s family and love ones…you are in my prayers every day.Bianca,thanx for that perfect tribute…it had me into tears.Ash,you must forgive us for not letting you go.Isidingo is not the same without you.Ash(lee) I still miss you so much, it hurts.

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry Anne,

Thank you so much for that beautiful poem.

Lots of love
Kerry

P.S Could you please give me your email address so i can email you.

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI KERRY

SURE ITS tarry@malachi.co.za

thanks 4 all your comments on my poetry, its just my way of dealing with my loss

talk to u soon

love always tarry

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

My email address is kerry@advancedcrating.co.za.

I will email you soon.

Chat soon.

Love always Kerry

 
LAMMIE Says:

hey all…
I STILL CAN’T BELIEVE SHE’S GONE…BUT HAVING HER OUT OF THE ISIDINGO THEME KINDA HIT ME HARD…HOW’S THIS:

…STRONG AS YOU WERE, TENDER YOU’LL GO, I’M WATCHING YOU BREATHING FOR THE LAST TIME…A SONG FOR YOUR HEART, BUT WHEN IT IS QUIET, I KNOW WHAT IT MEANS AND I’LL CARRY YOU HOME…

SO MANY SONGS THAT FIT…I’M THINKING OF ALL OF YOU GUYS..TARRY-ANN ALL I CAN SAY IS WOW..BRILLIANT! TAKE CARE GUYS

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI ALL

THANKS LAMMIE,
THANKS KERRY,

IT MEANS ALOT TO ME TO KNOW ALL ASHLEY’S FANS APPRECIATE MY HEART,

MOVES ME DEEPLY, ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT HERE ON THIS SITE I CAN BE ME, FEEL WHAT FEEL, MOURN AND BE COMFORTED BY ALL U WONDERFUL PEOPLE,

ASHLEY, I LOVE U, I MISS U SOOOOO MUCH,

LOVE ALWAYS TARRY

 
Kerry Gray Says:

I agree with tarry.

This website is such a comfort and it is lovily to know that there are so many people that feel the same as you and that you are not alone in all of this.

I miss you so much Ash.

Mr & Mrs Callie, Lauren, John, Deon, Kids, Fans and Isidingo Cast, may thoughts and prayers are with you always. Not a day goes by where i don’t think of you and think what we all are going thru. I am sure it is much more painful for the family and close friends.

Miss you always Ash. I know you watching from above and you are a beautiful star and rose in the garden.

Lots of love always
Kerry
xxxxxxxxxx

 
Simi Says:

I can’t watch Isidingo anymore. After Lee’s passing away and can’t seem to handle watching the soapie knowing that I will never see Lee again.

 
Paul Says:

I must also agree with Kerry & Tarry Anne.

Not only are we still distraught over this terrible, untimely, tragedy. But we are able to say how we feel.

I’m still not over Ash’s death, but I’m trying to cope.

She’ll be dearly missed.

I’ve learnt to live life to the very fullest, and also to appreciate the little things in life.

To Lauren, John, Mr & Mrs Callie, Deyon & Kids – I hope you are all doing okay. There is not one day that goes by that I don’t think of you all, that I don’t pray for you. I cannot even begin to imagine what you all must be going through, I cannot. If we as Ash’s loyal fans are so distraught.

Carpe Diem!

Paul x

 
A* Says:

I missed the funeral (in isidingo)cant it be uploaded?

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Paul,

Thanks so much for your comment.

How are you doing????

I am doing better but still missing Ash like crazy.

Sorry, I have not replied to your email yet but i have just been hectic.

i am working tomorrow for that 29th and 30th. So that will answer the question you asked me. I will reply tomorrow when i am at work.

Hope you are doing ok and i will explain in my mail to you and answer all your questions.

Enjoy your day
Lots of love always
your friend
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Tanya Says:

Ashley, there’s not a day that goes by, without you in our thoughts, hearts and prayers! We miss you so much and still can’t believe you’re gone. How are we ever going to come to terms with what happened? Thank you for touching our lives, for teaching us to live life to the fullest, for life is so short! Thank you for the example you were (and still is) for the young woman out there! May God bless your beautiful soul and may you rest in peace, Always.*

 
Tarry-anne Says:

Hi all,

Ialso wondered whyvthee funferal was not uploaded on here, i thought it would be,

Yes, i too learned to live life to the fullest, sometimes i feel bad because Ash is not here to do so, i miss her very much,

To the Callie family, my thoughts and prayers are always with you .

Deon and kids
love comforts, now that we all pray for you,
a lifetime of love you shared with Ash,
these are with you always,

To all close to Ashley,
this love we have, will last

Ash, will never be forgotten,

love Tarry

 
Tarry-anne Says:

FOR DEON…. BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN
ASHLEY

THERE WERE MOMENTS IN THIS LIFETIME,
THAT WITH YOU WILL REMAIN.
LOVE AND LAUGHTER,
AND MOMENTS OF TEARS,

A LOVE SO COMPLETE,
NOW MEMORIES SO SWEET,
MAY NOW BE A COMFORT

I ADMIRED THE ACTRESS,
LOVED BY ONE AND ALL
ME TOO OF CAUSSE,
YOU, SIR, LOVED THE LADY
EACH PASSING DAY

THEREARE MOMENTS NOW
YOU FEEL THAT SAME WAY,
SHE MAY BE GONE, BUT NOT FORGOTTEN

SHE’S IN THE AIR, AT THE CRACK OF DAWN,
A GENTLE BREEZE ON YOUR CHEEK, BY NOON
A HUMMING BIRDS SONG, WHEN EVENING FALL.

THE LOVE OF TOUR LIFE,
AND SHES, NEVER TOO FAR,

LOVE TARRY :)

 
Kathleen Says:

Ashley, we all miss you and we will never forget you!

 
still in shock! Says:

Ashley,

The cruelty of your death is still hurting me deeply. I wish you could tell us your happy where u are – death is so final. miss you lots – not seeing you for 2 weeks now feels depressing. You will never be forgotten!

luv always! Kim

guys – any developements with the idea of the bursary in AShley’s name?

 
Tarry-anne Says:

ASHLEY FOREVER BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN

A LITTLE GIRL FULL OF LIFE
PLAYFULL AND FUNNY
AS MOMMY AND DADDY RECALL

A TEENABGER HARD AT WORK
TO LIVE HER DREAM COMPLRTE
AND HER SISTER\S NUMBER ONE FAN.

ELEGANT AND INTELEGENT
WITH A PASSION FOR LIFE
THAT WAS EVIDANT TO ALL AROUND HER,

A SENSE OF HUMOUR
KNOWN AS ONE OF HER GREAT TRADES,
AS HER BEAUTY
DRESSED IN HUMILITY.

DAUGHTER, SISTER
LOVER[IF I MAY]
COUSIN, NIECE,
COLLEGUE AND FRIEND

AND TO TWO SPECIAL ANGELS
SHE WAS MOMMY TOO

ADMIRED BY MANY,
LOVED BY ALL,
SHE’S UNFORGETABLE,

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN…
SHE IS
OUR BELOVED ASHLEY CALLIE…

FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS, ASH
MISS YOU MORE EACH DAY.

LOVE TARRY

 
Tanya Says:

Tarry, Thank you for the BEAUTIFUL poem!

Love
Tanya

 
Tarry-anne Says:

thanks tanya

love always

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

Thanks so much for that beautiful poem.

Love always
Kerry
xxxxxxx

 
Meagan Says:

Hi, Tarry

The poem just made me cry all over again. Beautiful and so TRUE.

 
Tarry-anne Says:

sORRY megan, i know how you feel girl, miss her too

thanks

love TARRY

kERRY THANK FOR EVERYTRHING

LOVE ALWAYS

 
Peggy Says:

Hi Tarry What a beautiful poem!You really got skill.I am gonna print and frame all your poems becoz it’s brilliantly done.It also help me with the pain that I am still going through.Ash we still love and miss you so much.Do anybody knows when Ash’s movie(Mafrica) is coming out?I am looking forward to it.Keep well guys!

 
Tarry-anne Says:

thanks peggy,
that means alot to me,
i have no idea about the movie but will keep my eyes and ears open

love u
Tarry

 
Tarry-anne Says:

i am glad that you all are comforted,
we all here for each other

love always
Tarry

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Peggy, Tarry and the rest of the Fab Ash Gang,

The movie will be coming out at the end of the year and i believe it will be coming out on dvd too. I am going to buy the DVD for sure and i really hope it goes to the big screen, wouldn’t it be nice to see our beloved Ash on the big screen.

Peggy, thank you so much for all your message on the website, it is really comforting to me. Could you please give me your email address so i can email you.

Tarry,thank you for everything too. I love you friend.

Mr and Mrs Callie, Lauren, John, Deon, Kids and isidingo cast, i am thinking of you guys today and always. not a day so may where i don’t think of you and what we are all going through and i know it is a million, trillion times worse for you guys because you knew her personally.

Lots of love
always
Kerry
xxx

 
Tarry-anne Says:

THANKS KERRY

I’M DEFENITLY GETTING ONE THE MINUTE ITS OUT

LOVE
TARRY

 
Peggy Says:

Hi Kerry,Tarry and all Ash fans.Hope you all doing ok.Kerry…thanx for the lovely comment,it really means a lot to me.Thanx for the info about the movie too…I am defenitly gonna get me the dvd(can’t wait)and Ash on the big screen…it will be fantastic!After all, the movie is in loving memory of our beloved angel.Kerry,my e-mail adress is;margaretcloete@yahoo.com …Ash really brought us people together and I know she’s watching over us from above.Take care!!! Love u;Peggy

 
anon Says:

We must not question why the actress we loved had to die, there is no reason for that that can possibly relate to our personal lives as fans, instead we must ask why we came to love an actress who had to die, because for that, there is a reason, a unique and personal reason for each and every one of us. This ephinany took away the “Why, why, why? Why her? Why the one actress I loved?” thoughts that plauged me in the days after her death. Ashley did not die to teach you or I something, but the fact that each and every one of us here chose to start watching Isidingo and became spellbounded by both Lee and the actress who played, her even though God knew she would have to be taken from us, happened for a reason- a different reason for each one of us. And someday, we will all understand. Be strong, dry your tears, Ash is at peace.
AC4E
xxx

 
PC Says:

Hi, does anyone know if the the episode will be downlaoded on this site.

 
PC Says:

Hi, does anyone know if the the episode of Miss lee will be downlaoded on this site.

 
Tarry-anne Says:

Hi All

this is my last post

this however doesn’t mean anything bad
I LOVE ASHLEY AND WILL KEEP HER IN MY HEART FOEVER, THIS WILL NEVER CHANGE

 
Tarry-anne Says:

GOODBYE ASHLEY BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN
24/4/2008

CORAL ROSES ARE KNOWN
TO BRING WARMTH
INTO ANY PART OF THW WORLD.

JUST AS YOO
BROUGHT WARMTH TO MY HEART,
THE CORAL ROSE STAND TRUE
THE ASHLEY CALLIE ROSE

WITH YOUR LAUGHTER
YOU MADE ME SMILE,
WITH REARS, YOU SHOW’D HUMANITY,
WITH YOUR STRENGTH
YOU INSPIRED ME.

I LOVE YOU,ASHLEY
I ALWAYS WILL,
I MISS YOU
AND TEARS WILL ALWAYS FLOW.

REST IN PEACE
BELOVED CORAL ROSE,
AS HERE, I, SAY GOODBYE.

I PROMISE, YOU NOT FORGOTTEN
FOR YOU , NOW
BLOSSOM IN HEAVEN.
BEAUTIFUL ROSE,
MEET YOU THERE…
UNTIL THEN, ASHLEY
GOODBYE :(

LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER
TARRY-ANNE

 
Peggy Says:

Hi there, Tarry! Hope you ok.Thanx again for the beautiful poem.Sorry but I’m feeling a bit sad for you leaving the site.Your poems and comments was then so inspiring to me.You must take care and know that you will always be in my thoughts and prayers.Remember that we have still a long way to go before we will really get over losing Ash,but it will all get better in time.

 
Paul Says:

Hi Guys,

Why is everyone leaving their last posts? I know it’s like Tarry-Ann said it’s not a bad thing as Ashley will ALWAYS be in our hearts and minds. But, we all said we were going to keep this website going, in Ash’s rememberance.

I’m missing her deeply, but I’m trying to let her Rest, but it’s very very difficult!

To Lauren, John, Mr & Mrs Callie, Deyon & Kids – My thoughts and prayers are still with you. I hope you are all doing okay.

Ashley, you inspired me in so many ways, and I miss you more and more as the days go by. I’m living my life to the fullest and enjoying all the little moments, something I’ve learnt from you!

Carpe Diem.
Paul x

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

I visit the website everyday and read through – I don’t always write but I am still here. I don’t know how we ever going to get over this. At night during Isidingo I feel so disconnected … I feel so angry that Ash is gone, that Lee is gone.

 
Paul Says:

Hi Bianca,

I agree with you. To me, it’s like 6:30 – 7pm doesn’t matter anymore! It’s like what’s the point? “Isidingo” is just NOT the same without Ash there, there’s an emptiness there that’s hard to describe.

I’m also so angry and deeply saddened that she is gone.

Do you mind if I mail you from time to time? I know you left your email address on this site a while ago? If you don’t mind, of course. *Please let me know*.

Ashley you are sorely missed! You live on in our hearts and minds.

Carpe Diem!

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI ALL

I KONOW I SAID I’M LEAVING
BUT PAUL U GOT ME THINKING, NOW I DONT WANT TO LEAVE WANNA BE A PART OF KEEPING ASH’S MEMORY ALIVE

 
Tarry-anne Says:

PAUL, PEGGY, BIABCA AND KERRY E MAIL ME A SHORT MESSAGE WHAT ASH MEANS TO U, PLEASE MY ADDRESS IS tarry@malachi.co.za,
i’ll combine it in a poem please

thanks
love Tarry

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,Paul, Peggy and the rest of the gang,

Tarry, I am so glad Paul got you thinking about leaving. This site would be empty without your poems friend.

Paul, Sorry i have not mailed you yet but i have just been really hectic at work. I will mail you soon and let you know when i have sent it.

Peggy, thanks for your email address, mine is kerry@advancedcrating.co.za. i will email you soon.

Bianca, could i email you too.

Ash, I miss you.

Love
Kerry
xxxxxx

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI GUYS

I AM WAITING FOR YOU MESSAGES.
PLEASE E MAIL IT TO ME,

I DON’T WATCH ISIDINGO ANTMORE FAR TOO DIFFICULT TO WATCH, IT UPSETS ME ACTUALLY, MAYBE ONE DAY, BUT THAT WON’T BE ANYTIME SOON,

I MISS ASH TOO MUCH

LOVE U GUYS

PAUL THANKS FOR REMINDING ME, ITS BECAUSE OF ASHLEY,

THANKS AGAIN

LOVE TARRY :)

 
Tarry-anne Says:

hi paul and kerry

thanks

peggy and bianca

still waiting for yours

 
Lindsay Says:

Hi All,

I live in Cape Town so I don’t get The Star. Does anyone know what is happening with the case?

 
Tarry-anne Says:

i’d like to too, anyone?

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

Hi,

It is biancamoll@telkomsa.net

I understand. It is so difficult to watch Isidingo since the whole essence of Lee is gone. It is so empty. And the storylines seems not to interest me at all – I am just feeling the emptyness inside. I still sometimes can’t believe that we have suffered this lost and yet the show continues’ I wish they can bring back memories of her – people thinking of her and then let us see the flashbacks.

Regards
Bianca

 
Tarry-anne Says:

REMEMBER LEE BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN

LIFE GOES ON THIS WE KNOW
AND AS ANY PERFORMER WOULD SAY,
SO TOO DOES THE SHOW

BUT, HERE MAKE AN EXECPTION
FOR WE MOURN HER STILL,
HER ABSENSE, FAR GREATER THAN IMAGINED
HER PASSING STILL A SHOCK
A GREAT DEAL OF DISBELIEF

THAT WE LOST SOMEONE SO DEAR
WHOM NOW IN OUR HEARTS
HOLD DEAR

SHARE WITH US MEMORIES,
THOUGHTS OF LAUGHTER
AND OF TEARS,
SHOW US FLASBACKS
AS YOU, REMEMBER LEE…

GIVE US PRECIOUS MOMENTS,
LET HER NOT GO UNMENTIONED,
A WEEK NOT PASS
WITHOUT HER.

THE SHOW MUST GO ON,
BUT PLEASE…
REMEMBER LEE..

MISS U ASH:(

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

Thank you so much for that beautiful poem.

It is very true what you said. For me, i will never forget Ash or Lee and i will always hold her close to my heart.

Miss you loads Ash.

Thanks Bianca for your email address. Will email you when i get back to work next week Monday.

Lots of love Always
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Peggy,

How are you???

I sent you an email this morning, Please let me know if you got it.

Hope you are well
Chat soon

Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Tarry-anne Says:

ASHLEY ‘LEONIE HAINES’ CALLIE BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN

THROUGH THE EYES OF PAUL, PEGGY, KERRY AND ME

‘YOU MEAN A LOT TO ME’ SAYS PAUL
A ROLE MODEL,
FOR WHAT YOU DONE, YOU DID IT BRILLIANTLY
LOVED YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE

‘YOU ALL I EVER WANTED TO BE’
SAYS PEGGY, AND SO MUCH MORE,
CHERISH YOU DEARLY
FOREVER, SHE’LL REMEMBER YOU.

HARD TO SAY GOODBYE
ALTHOUGH SHE KNOWS
SHE HAS TO LET GO,
BUT AN INSPIRATION, YOU, REMAIN
SAYS KERRY,
AS SHE MISSES YOU.

FOREVER ‘ A LADY OF INSPIRATION’ TO ME
MY FAVOURITE,
MY STAR I NEVER GOT TO MEET,
I, NOW HOLD YOU IN MY HEART,

ASHLEY…

WE LOVE YOU, WE ALWAYS WILL,
SUPERSTAR AND OUR LEADING LADY
WE MISS YOU…
PAUL, PEGGY, KERRY AND ME.

 
Peggy Says:

Hi there Tarry.Hope you are doing ok.First of all,it’s nice having you back…and you are back with a bang girl!!! What can I say about that poems?…BRILLIANT(it made me cry and smile at the same time)Ash,I still love and miss you so much.I am still trying to let go,but it’s to hard for me.

 
Peggy Says:

Hi Kerry.I am doing ok…hope you fine too.Still missing our beloved angel so dearly but you guys on this site help me trying to take it one day at a time.At the end of the day,we all have something in commin(we all ASH FANS)and I am proud to be one.Kerry, I am gonna check my mail tonight(after 7)I’ll let you know then.

 
Tarry-anne Says:

MORNING ALL

THANKS PEGGY,

I MISS ASH SOOO MUCH,I REALLY DO

TO THE CALLIE FAMILY, DEON AND KIDS MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU STILL.

ASH, I MISS YOU TODAY MORE THEN EVER, I JUST BURST INTO TEARS THIS MORNING, I CANT BELIEVE YOU GONE.

REALLY, REALLY WISH YOU WERE HERE

LOVE
TARRY

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry, Peggy, PAul and the rest of the Fab Ash Gang,

I am doing ok, Really missing Ash Today.

I was looking on the calendar yesterday, I can’t believe this is the 11th week without Ash in the world. It really scares me how time is moving on so fast.

Thanks Tarry for the poem, it is really beautiful and made me cry Friend.

Peggy, thanks just let me know if you got my email.

Paul, Hope you are doing fine, will email you soon.

I also really wish you were here with us.

Miss you always Ash.

Lots of love always
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Tarry-anne Says:

I MISS YOU ASHLEY BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN
30/4/2008

TODAY, YOU ON MY MIND
MORE THEN OTHER DAYS,
TODAY MY HEART HURTS
AS IT DID THAT TRAGIC DAY..

I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING!
CAUSE THE PAIN IS TOO MUCH,
I TRY HARD TO HOLD BACK MY TEARS,

I CAN’T HELP
BUT FALL APART,

AT TIMES, I SMILE
WHEN I THINK OF YOU.
AT TIMES
I LAUGH UNCONTROLLABLY,
WHEN I THINK ABOUT YOU, ASH.

THAN COMES DAYS LIKE THIS,
WHEN I FEEL MY BROKEN HEART BREAK
TEARS CLOUD OP MY EYES
WHEN I THINK OF YOU.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH
WORDS DOESN’T MEASURE UP
TO THE LONGING IN MY HEART.

I KNOW, YOU AT REST,
IN GOD’S HAND.
BUT I CAN’T HELP
CAUSE I MISS YOU SO

I MOURN YOU STILL,
AS I TRY TO MAKE SENSE OF IT ALL,
MAYBE I NEVER WILL.

BUT TODAY, I MISS YOU.
AND FOREVER,
THERE IS A PART OF MY HEART
THAT BELONGS TO YOU.

LOVE TARRY

 
Paul Says:

Hey Tarry,

Thanks for your beautiful poems! Really inspirational. And more importantly, thanks for coming back to Ash’s website. I was crushed when you said “this is my last post”.

I must say I’m doing quite a bit better, but, heck, it’s hell of a difficult to let Ash rest, it really is.

I still cannot believe she’s gone, and when I look at her pictures I keep thinking that we are in a bad dream.

I also always wish that she was here.

To Dearest Lauren, John, Mr & Mrs Callie, Deyon & Kids – I hope you are all doing okay. I often say to myself if we are feeling so destroyed, as Ashley’s dearest fans, what on earth must you all be going through? I’m still praying and thinking of you all, today, everyday.

Carpe Diem!

Paulx

 
Natalie Le Clue Says:

I’ll remember never to forget you…..

 
Peggy Says:

Hi guys, I hope that everything is still fine with you.Today I really had a bad day(I cried the whole day over my star that is’nt there anymore)and what is so funny when I got myself to go on the site now,I saw that you …Kerry and Tarry were feeling the same.I was watching from the scenes that I’ve recorded of Ash through the six years(what talent and beauty we have lost).Tarry thank you for the beautiful poem and Kerry thanx for the email.I’ll reply on Sunday.Ash,I wish that you could still be with us and you must know that the big gap you’ve left behind, can never ever be filled.Ash fans take care!!!

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Natalie,

How are you doing??? Long time no hear.

I am doing fine, Just really missing Ash loads.

I sent you an email about 2 – 3 weeks ago and I never got a reply. Did you get my email???

Hope you are well and thanks for posting a comment on the site again.

Please let me know.

Lots of love always
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Peggy,

Thanks for your post.

How are you doing???

I am doing better but the pain never goes away and i know it will be with me for sometime still. Not a day goes by where i don’ think about Ash. I miss her so much and i really really wish she was here.

You are so lucky to have recorded scenes with her for the past 6 years. I only have recent ones.

Hope you are doing a little bit better.

No Stress about the email, you can reply when ever you get a chance.

Lots of love always
Kerry

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

Thanks once again for that beautiful poem.

I feel the same way as you do Friend. I know the rest of the gang are feeling the same aswell.

Hope you are feeling abit better and I will send you an email as soon as i get back to work.

Lots of love always
Kerry

 
LAMMIE Says:

hey all, it has been a while…hope you guys are keeping the heads up – i know it’s difficult though. Isidingo has lost it’s edge… but i was wondering…where is alec in all of this? why was he not at her memorial?
Anyway..those poems Tarry…really amazing girl!
I’m not good with words, i like to express myself in music, so here is my (sorry) attempt…

Two month is too little they let her go, they had no…sudden healing…this is what it means, to be held, how it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life, and you survive, this is how it feels, to be loved, and to know that the promise was when everything fell, we’d be held.
I CLOSE BOTH LOCKS BELOW THE WINDOW, I CLOSE BOTH BLINDS AND TURN AWAY, SOMETIMES SOLUTIONS AREN’T SO SIMPLE, SOMETIMES GOOD BYE’S THE ONLY WAY, AND THE SUN WILL SET FOR YOU, THE SUN WILL SET FOR YOU, AND THE SHADOW OF THE DAY, WILL EMBRACE THE WORLD IN GRAY, AND THE SUN WILL SET FOR YOU, IN CARDS AND FLOWERS ON YOUR WINDOW, YOUR FRIENDS ALL PLEAD FOR YOU TO STAY, SOMETIMES BEGINNINGS AREN’T SO SIMPLE
SOMETIMES GOOD BYE’S THE ONLY WAY
I, I don’t wanna say it, I don’t wanna find another way to make it through the day without you, I, I can’t resist, try to find exactly what I missed, It’s just another day without you, It’s just another day.
AS STRONG AS YOU WERE, TENDER YOU GO. I’M WATCHING YOU BREATHING FOR THE LAST TIME. A SONG FOR YOUR HEART, BUT WHEN IT IS QUIET, I KNOW WHAT IT MEANS AND I’LL CARRY YOU HOME. I’LL CARRY YOU HOME. IF SHE HAD WINGS SHE WOULD FLY AWAY, AND ANOTHER DAY GOD WILL GIVE HER SOME. TROUBLE IS THE ONLY WAY IS DOWN. DOWN, DOWN. AND THEY WERE ALL BORN PRETTY IN NEW YORK CITY TONIGHT, AND SOMEONE’S LITTLE GIRL WAS TAKEN FROM THE WORLD TONIGHT (TO LIGHT?).
Spend all your time waiting, for that second chance, For a break that would make it okay, There’s always some reason to feel not good enough, And it’s hard at the end of the day, I need some distraction, oh beautiful release, Memories seep from my veins, Let me be empty, oh, and weightless, and maybe, I’ll find some peace tonight, In the arms of the angel, far away from here, From this dark cold hotel room, And the endlessness that you fear, You are pulled from the wreckage, Of your silent reverie, You’re in the arms of the angel, May you find some comfort here, So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn, There’s vultures and thieves at your back, The storm keeps on twisting, keep on building the lies, That you make up for all that you lack, It don’t make no difference, escaping one last time, It’s easier to believe, in this sweet madness, Oh this glorious sadness, that brings me to my knees..
IN THE FUTURE, CAN’T WAIT TO SEE, IF YOU OPEN UP THE GATES FOR ME, REMINISCE SOME TIME, THE NIGHT THEY TOOK MY FRIEND, TRY TO BLACK IT OUT, BUT IT PLAYS AGAIN, WHEN ITS REAL, FEELINGS HARD TO CONCEAL, CAN’T IMAGINE ALL THE PAIN I FEEL, GIVE ANYTHING TO HEAR HALF YOUR BREATH (HALF YOUR BREATH), I KNOW YOU STILL LIVING YOUR LIFE, AFTER DEATH, EVERY STEP I TAKE, EVERY MOVE I MAKE, EVERY SINGLE DAY, EVERY TIME I PRAY, I’LL BE MISSING YOU, THINKING OF THE DAY, WHEN YOU WENT AWAY, WHAT A LIFE TO TAKE, WHAT A BOND TO BREAK, I’LL BE MISSING YOU, IT’S KINDA HARD WITH YOU NOT AROUND, KNOW YOU’RE IN HEAVEN SMILING DOWN, WATCHING US WHILE WE PRAY FOR YOU, EVERY DAY WE PRAY FOR YOU, ‘TIL THE DAY WE MEET AGAIN, IN MY HEART IS WHERE I’LL KEEP YOU FRIEND, MEMORIES GIVE ME THE STRENGTH I NEED TO PROCEED, STRENGTH I NEED TO BELIEVE, MY, THOUGHTS BIG I JUST CAN’T DEFINE, WISH I COULD TURN BACK THE HANDS OF TIME…
It amazes me, this thing that we call love, you give everything and still it’s not enough. See I have fallen, I have watched it slip away, and I have nothing, but to start all over again…and I can’t believe it, time is a healer
I WANTED, PERFECTION, IN EVERY SONG I’VE EVER SUNG, THAT WAS WRONG, AND I WANTED, SOMETHING, FROM EVERY PERSON I’VE EVER LOVED, THAT WAS WRONG, AND I’VE CHANGED, I’VE CHANGED, I’VE RECONSIDERED EVERYTHING, I’M FINE NOW, I’M FINE NOW, I’VE LAID THE BARREL IN MY MOUTH, I WON’T THINK ANYMORE, I’VE CHANGED..AND I WANTED TO BE, EXEMPT FROM TEMPTATION, BUT I CAN’T BE…I WANTED YOUR LOVE, TO BE, EVERLASTING, BUT IT ISN’T, AND I WANTED LIFE TO BE, AN EASIER PROPOSITION, BUT IT ISN’T, AND I’VE CHANGED, I’VE CHANGED, I’VE RECONSIDERED EVERYTHING, I’M FINE NOW, I’M FINE NOW, I’VE LAID THE BARREL IN MY MOUTH…
I can’t feel my senses,I just feel the cold, All colours seem to fade away, I can’t reach my soul, I would stop running, If I knew there was a chance, It tears me apart to sacrifice it all, But I’m forced to let go, Tell me I’m, frozen, But what can I do? Can’t tell the reasons, I did it for you, When lies turn into truth , I sacrifice for you, You, say that I am frozen, But what can I do?
I’M NOT A PERFECT PERSON, THERE’S MANY THINGS I WISH I DIDN’T DO, BUT I CONTINUE LEARNING, I NEVER, MEANT TO DO THOSE THINGS TO YOU, AND SO I HAVE TO SAY BEFORE I GO, THAT I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW, I’VE FOUND A REASON FOR ME, TO CHANGE WHO I USED TO BE, A REASON TO START OVER NEW, AND THE REASON IS YOU
When you’re gone, The pieces of my heart are missing you, When you’re gone, The face I came, to know is missing too, When you’re gone, The words I need to hear to always get me, through the day and make it ok, I miss you…
MAY IT BE AN EVENING STAR, SHINES DOWN UPON YOU, MAY IT BE WHEN DARKNESS FALLS, YOUR HEART WILL BE TRUE, YOU WALK A LONELY ROAD, OH ! HOW FAR YOU ARE FROM HOME, MORNIE UTÚLIË (DARKNESS HAS COME), BELIEVE AND YOU WILL FIND YOUR WAY, MORNIE ALANTIË (DARKNESS HAS FALLEN), A PROMISE LIVES WITHIN YOU NOW. MAY IT BE THE SHADOWS CALL, WILL FLY AWAY, MAY IT BE YOUR JOURNEY ON, TO LIGHT THE DAY, WHEN THE NIGHT IS OVERCOME, YOU MAY RISE TO FIND THE SUN, MORNIE UTÚLIË (DARKNESS HAS COME), BELIEVE AND YOU WILL FIND YOUR WAY, MORNIE ALANTIË (DARKNESS HAS FALLEN), A PROMISE LIVES WITHIN YOU NOW, A PROMISE LIVES WITHIN YOU NOW
And it feels like tonight, I can’t believe I’m broken inside
I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’VE DONE, OR IF I LIKE WHAT I’VE BEGUN, BUT SOMETHING TOLD ME TO RUN, AND HONEY YOU KNOW ME IT’S ALL OR NONE, THERE WERE SOUNDS IN MY HEAD, LITTLE VOICES WHISPERING, THAT I SHOULD GO AND THIS SHOULD END , OH AND I FOUND MYSELF LISTENING, ‘COS I DON’T KNOW WHO I AM, WHO I AM WITHOUT YOU, ALL I KNOW IS THAT I SHOULD, AND I DON’T KNOW IF I COULD STAND ANOTHER HAND UPON YOU, ALL I KNOW IS THAT I SHOULD…
Ek wens ek was daar om by jou te staan, dan sou ek my lewe vir jou gee, maar ek was te laat, nou die aand, kan jy my se…wat gaan aan?
YOU GIVE AND TAKE AWAY, YOU GIVE AND TAKE AWAY, BUT MY HEART WILL CHOOSE TO SAY, LORD, BLESSED BE YOUR NAME!

>>>ok guys, i do appologise<<<
please take care and you are all in my prayers

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

Hi All!

I am really glad to see that it is not only me that is going crazy cause the pain increase and the missing feeling begins to get to much and then the angers kicks in again. But in the end it is the emptyness that she has left.

She gazed upon our lives as the Young Lady of Steel with an Golden Heart. She has grown into an icon and a sister to all through Lee Haynes and now that she is gone it is just like Isidingo is empty …. that the space in our hearts has been ripped out where she was always…

No has flash backs about her … it is just like she has disapear into the clutches of death. It is hard to watch and see her no more.

I don’t know.

Regards me

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

What I tried to say was that no-one seems to have flash backs and remembers her … in the other soaps it does happens and I thought by doing this one a week through Barker it will make the pain better and ease us in without her but it did not happened. She is out in the intro. Ag, I don’t know – they did what was best for the show but still. It feels so empty.

 
Kim Steenhuis Says:

Thanks to everybody who has left such beautiful tributes for our Ash on this site, it helps me from day to day. I felt strong & good but i saw her on TV & i was in tears all over again, it felt like yesterday that she passed on. I miss & love u always my dearest Ash, keep watching from up above & keep us all safe. CARPE DIEM

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI ALL

LAMMIE, THAT IS BEAUTIFUL.

HOW ARE YOU ALL TODAY,

TODAY I THINK OD ASH WITH A SMILE I DON’T KNOOW WHY BUT I AM

ASHLEY, I MISS U

MR & MRS CALLIE, LAUREN, JOHN, DEON AND KIDS.
YOU ALWAYS IN MY PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS.

YOUR DAUGHTER, SISTER, PARTNER AND ‘MOM’ ISM WAS AND ALWAYS WILL BE AN INSPIRATION TO ME

SHE;S IN MY HEART FOREVER

LOVE
TARRY

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HOMAGE FOR OUR ISIDINGO ROSE
ASHLEY CALLIE BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN

AMOUNGST THE ANGELS YOU NOW WALK,
ROAMING ON THE STREETS MADE OF GOLD,
WHERE PEACE IS THE ORDER OF THE DAY,
WHERE DARKNESS IS UNKNOWN,
FOR HEAVEN IS NOW YOUR HOME.

HERE, WHERE YOU ONCE WERE,
YOUR ABSENSE IS STILL A STING
A PLACE THAT WAS ONCE WHOLE
NOW, EMPTINESS HAS CONTROL.

HEARTS BROKEN IN A BILLION PIECES
LIKE GLASS, WE HERE, NOW ARE.
FOR YOU, OUR BELOVED
HAS GONE FAR,

TO A PLACE WHERE FLOWERS NEVER WITHER,
WHERE RIVERS FLOW OF MILK AND HONEY,
THE BEAUTY THERE, IS BREATHTAKING,

A PLACE WHERE YOU, OUR CORAL ROSE
NOW, BLOSSOM JUST AS BEAUTIFUL
AS THE REST,

FOR YOU WERE OUR BEST,
AND THE MEMORY OF YOU,
IS AS COLOURFUL AS THE RAINBOW, HERE.

BROKEN WE ARE INDEED
FOR YOU, WE NO LONGER SEE,
BUT IN HEARTS
YOU WILL ALWAYS BE..

FOR ALWAYS
WITH THE ANGELS YOU DWELL,
AS HEAVEN IS NOW, YOUR HOME.

I MISS YOU ASHLEY, MORE EACH PASSING DAY

FOREVER
TARRY

 
Tanya Says:

Thank you Tarry!
It’s so beautiful and inspiring!
Thank you so very much!

Love
Tanya

 
Tarry-anne Says:

Hi Tanya

thanks

love
TARRY

 
Peggy Says:

Hi everybody.Hope you are all ok.Tarry I am glad that you can think about Ash today with a smile.I am still trying to shake this sad feeling I had since last Wednesday.Tarry thanx for the lovely poem.It’s so beautiful.Kerry I hope that you are doing ok.I did send you an email this morning,for you too Tarry.I just have to share this few lyrics from a song that I came across today…NEVER KNEW I COULD HURT LIKE THIS AND EVERYDAY LIFE ROLLS ON, I WISH I COULD TALK TO YOU FOR A WHILE, MISS YOU BUT I TRY NOT TO CRY,AS TIME GOES BY,AND IT’S TRUE THAT YOU’VE REACHED A BETTER PLACE,STILL I’D GIVE THE WORLD TO SEE YOUR FACE,AND BE RIGHT NEXT TO YOU,BUT IT’S LIKE YOU’RE GONE TOO SOON, NOW THE HARDEST THING TO DO IS SAY BYE BYE, I THOUGHT YOU WERE SO STRONG, YOU’D MAKE IT THROUGH WHATEVER, IT’S SO HARD TO ACCEPT THE FACT YOU’RE GONE FOREVER, WE LIFT OUR HEADS TO THE SKY,CAUSE WE WILL NEVER SAY BYE BYE…Ash still love and miss you.

 
Tarry-anne Says:

Hi Peggy

thanks girl, i still cry when i think about ASH, too, this song is it not Mariah Carey’s Paul told me about it, I got to get it, now i really have to get it. Paul said it beautiful.

Guys today i’m not having a good day, been crying all morning, U think it getting worse, to believe the unbelievable, That Ash is really gone

Ash, i wish you were girl, and your birthday’s at the door, Gosh! i miss u

 
Peggy Says:

Hi Tarry…thanx for your post.Yeah,we have our off days,somedays more difficult then the others,but as long as we( loyal Ash fans) are there for each other makes it a bit easier.It means alot if I’m in a sad mood to go on this site and read the comments and beautiful poems.Paul is right,the song is from Mariah Carey’s new cd.When is Ash’s birthday?I have two dates that I’ve got on this site(30/11 and 19/05).Hi Kerry,what’s up?Ash,you are on my mind every single day and will be forever because you are unforgettable.Guys,keep well!!!

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI PEGGY

19 MAY 1973

THAT IS ASHLEY’S BIRTHDAY.

LOVE ALWAYS

 
Tarry-anne Says:

ASHLEY, A LASTING MEMORY BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN

A ROSE, TODAY BEARS YOUR NAME,
REPRESENTS LIFE,
REPRESENTS YOU.

FOR YOU LIVED
WITH ZEAL AND PASSION,
PLAYFUL YOU WERE
UP TO MISCHIF TOO,

NEVER A DULL MOMENT,
YOU PROVED YOUR MOTTO, TRUE…
THE SOUND OF YOUR LAUGHTER,
IS STILL HEARD
AT OUR SADDEST HOUR,

ITS AT THIS MOMENT, I SMILE
AS I REMEMBER YOU.

YOU LIVED BY EXAMPLE,
YOU INSPIRED WITH GRACE
THE PERSON YOU ARE
CARPE DIEM, YOU DID…

THANK YOU FOR THAT,
THANK YOU MOSTLY,
FOR TOCHING MY LIFE.

GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN…
A LASTING MEMORY,
YOU LEFT BEHIND,

AND A ROSE
THAT REPRESENTS YOU,
THE LIFE YOU LIVED,
A LEGACY, CHERISHED

FOREVER…. YOU.

LOVE YOU ASH,
ALWAYS
TARRY ;)

 
Peggy Says:

Hi Tarry.Thanks for the info.

 
Peggy Says:

Tarry,once again,A BEAUTIFUL POEM…thanx girl.You really make me proud to be an Ash fan.

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI PEGGY,
THAT MAKES TWO OF US, REALLY PROUD TO BE
AN ASH FAN

SHE IS MY ROLE MODEL AND THE ONLY ACTRESS [IN S.A] I EVER LOVED
AND ALWAYS WILL.

ANS STILL SHE INSPIRES ME

LOVE ALWAYS
TARRY

 
Paul Says:

Hi Peggy,

How are you doing? Hope you are doing well. Thanks so much for putting the lyrics to Mariah Carey’s stunningly beautiful song, “Bye Bye”. Isn’t it just an amazing song? When I bought her cd last weekend, and I listened to the words, I immediately thought of Ash. It had me sobbing all over again.

Ashley impacted so much not just on my life, but on all of the Ash Fan people. I miss her more and more as the days go by. I’m happy to report that my Ashley Callie Rose Bush is doing very well and looks so beautiful.

To Lauren, Mrs Callie: It was truly an honour to have spoken to you both yesterday. I thank you so much for your kindness to me. Your sister and daughter impacted so much on my life. I was her biggest fan and cannot watch “Isidingo” anymore. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t pray and think of you, always.

Tarry-Anne: It was great speaking to you today. I’ll try to phone you soon. You HAVE to get that cd of Mariah Carey. The whole cd is great, but that song is the best!

Ashley, I hope you are at Peace Now. But please forgive me as I cannot let you go.

Your dedicated fan, always!

Carpe Diem.

Paulx

 
Peggy Says:

Hi there Paul,I am doing a little better than yesterday.Hope that you are well too.It was a pleasure putting those lyrics on the site.I totally agree with you that it’s such an amazing song.Every time I play that song,I think about our beloved angel,then I can’t stop myself from crying.You’re right,that is a great cd.Paul,you really should feel honoured for speaking to Mrs Callie and Lauren.Next time when you talk to them again,tell them there’s a devoted fan in Cape Town that will always think of them and pray for them.I’m also proud of my ASHLEY CALLIE ROSE.I was never into gardening,but you must see me now(all about Ash).I’m busy planting lawn.Ash fans,I am thinking of you all!Take care!

 
Tarry-anne Says:

MORNING GANG

HOPE U ALL DOING WELL.

PAUL U ARE HONOURED INDEED TO HAVE SPOKEN TO MRS.CALLIE AND LAUREN. NEXT TIME, SEND THEM MY LOVE TOO PLEASE :)

ASH I MISS YOU.

LOVE
ME :)

 
Tarry-anne Says:

PAUL THANKS FOR SHARING YOUR MOMENT WITH ME

LOVE
TARRY

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

How are you doing today???

I am doing a little better, but the pain does not go away.

Thank you so much once again for that beautiful poem.

Speak to you soon friend.

Lots of love
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI KERRY

GLAD TO HEAR THAT, SAME HERE

LOVE
T
x

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Peggy,

How are you doing????

I am fine.

I have send you an email this morning, could you please reply and resend me your mail that you sent me this morning. I explained in my mail why i need you to to resend it.

Hope you are well,

Chat soon
Lots of love always
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Paul,

How are you doing????

I am fine. i also sent you an email this morning, could you please reply to it.

It is nice to see your post on the webiste again. I also want to buy the mariah Carey Cd and when you speak to Lauren and Mrs Callie could you also send them my regards and that i think about them everyday.

Hope you are well my Friend.

Hope to hear from you soon
Lots of love always
Kerry
xxxxx

 
kimsteenhuis Says:

Hi All,

Today i would like to share a song that i came across quiet awhile ago that made me think of Ashley when i heard it. It makes me feel a little better when i listen and makes mes understand where she is and how she still lives on in my life as well as all of her other friends and fans.

I see you smiling at me
You’re star is shining bright
And i don’t feel so lonely
I know you’re here tonight

I’m smiling in your light’
And i know, I know ill be alright
I know my life has meaning
You showed me that it’s true
And deep inside i feel it
I owe it all to you
I’m shining in your light
And I know, I know i’ll be alright

I see you smiling at me
You’re star is shining bright
And i don’t feel so lonely
I know you’re here tonight

To Lauren, Claire, Graham and John Callie, i hope you are all taking one day at a time and coping with what ever comes your way. Ash is deeply missed by me and her inspiration will always carry me through. My thoughts are with now and always and may you all remember her in your own special way.
Ash was someone that everybody wanted to strive to be like and that legacy will always be alive and live on in all her fans.
Take care of each other and keep on looking up at Ash’s star, you cant miss it, its the brightest one by far.
Lots of love, from one of Ash’s many fans

 
Tarry-anne Says:

ASHLEY.. MY STAR BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN

TO MR & MRS CALLIE, JOHN & LAUREN

YOUR BABY YOU LOVED,
THE BABY YOU RAISED,
THE CHILD YOU WATCHED,
MATURED, THE WOMAN SHE BECAME
ALL PLEASURES YOU SHARED
ARE MEMORIES TODAY.

BEAUTIFUL AND INTELLEGENT,
DEARLY LOVED WAS SHE,
FOR WHO SHE WAS..

A ROLE MODEL
AN INSPIRATION,
ADMIRED,

A LADY OF CLASS,
SWEET, YET STRONG WILLED.

SHE TOUCHED OUR LIVES,
CAPTURED OUR HEARTS
AND HOLDS IT STILL,

YOUR BABY GIRL, YOUR SISTER
WAS, IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE
LOVED, REMEMBERED AND CHERISHED.

EVENTHOUGH I’M JUST A FAN
BUT, ASHLEY TO ME
A LIVING INSPIRATION INDEED

LOVE ALWAYS
TARRY

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

Thanks for that lovily poem.

Ash was an inspiration to all of us and she will always be loved and admired.

I miss her so much.

Lots of love
K
xxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Kim,

Thank you so much for that beautiful post.

could you please tell me the name of that song and who wrote it.

I agree with you, Ash’s star is the brightest in the sky and you can’t miss it.

Your last paragraph is just so true.

Lots of love
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Tanya Says:

Kim and Tarry, Thank you so much!
It’s really, really beautiful!!!

 
Paul Says:

Hi Peggy,

It really is a beautiful song. And when I was listening to it this morning on my car cd player, I was thinking of Ash all the time. To be honest, I never have been a big Mariah fan, but that song … Gosh, it’s something else!

I did and still do feel so deeply honoured to have spoken to Lauren & Mrs Callie. It certainly wasn’t the easiest thing I have done, but I needed to do it, and am proud of the fact that I did! I will definitely send them your regards when I try to phone again.

I was the same. Never into gardening. But you must see how I faff over my Ashley Callie Rose Bush. Even when my dogs go near it, I wanna smack them :-) How many buds do you have? Mine looks beautiful today.

Please, if you don’t mind, could you send me your mail address. I’d like to keep in contact with you, if that’s okay with you.

Dearest Mrs Callie, Lauren, Mr Callie, John, Deyon & Kids. I hope you are all doing well. Lauren, & Mrs Callie, I am so happy that I spoke to you both, and thank you for being so kind and appreciative of my call. Ashley was such an amazing person who was taken away from us FAR TOO SOON. I do feel better now that I have spoken to you both. My thoughts and prayers are still with you all.

Kerry, hi! I will reply to your mail today.

Tarry, thanks for your support, friend! Much appreciated and your poems are great. I’m so glad that you are still on this beautiful site!

*Ashley I miss you more and more* *Your star shines so brightly*

Carpe Diem.

Paul x

 
kimsteenhuis Says:

MORNING KERRY,

HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY. THE SONG IS CALLED SHINING IN YOUR LIGHT AND IT IS SUNG BY NIANELL. IT COMES FROM HER ALBUM CALLED WHO PAINTED THE MOON.

ASH, YOUR IMAGE IS SO BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL IN MY MIND AND THOUGHTS THIS MORNING. KEEP WATCHING DOWN FROM THERE AND REMEMBER, I MISS YOU SO MUCH BUT YOU WILL FOREVER BE IN MY THOUGHTS AND MIND.

LOVE YOU FOREVER

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Kim,

Thanks for the info.

I will buy the CD soon.

Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Paul,

thanks, i will be waiting for your reply.

Chat soon
Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Tarry-anne Says:

ASHLEY, MY CONFESSION BY TARRY-AMME HOLOEIN

THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU
ON THE TV SCREEN,
WOW! I LIKE LEE!
WHAT A LADY, IS SHE!
I SAID TO MYSELF.

YOU KNOW, MA
I SAID ONE DAY
IF THERE’S AN ACTRESS
I’D LIKE TO MEET,
ITS THE ONE THAT PLAYS LEE,
YEAH! DEFINITLY,
SHE’S THE SOAPS LEADING LADY
AND HER REAL NAME IS ASHLEY.

SOON IT WAS KNOWN
THAT MU FAVOUROTE CELED
IS ASHLEY CALLIE.

POSTERS I GATHERED, INTERVIWS I WATCH
WHO IS SHE? I WAS ASKED BY MANY
WHEN THEY ENTERED MY ROOM
THIS RIGHT HERE, IS ISIDINGO’S LEADING LADY
AND I JUST LOVE HER, MADLY! I’D REPLY
JUST BEAUTIFUL ISN’T SHE,

SHE’S A DARLING!
SHE’S INSPIRING,
AND SHE WROTE ME A LETTER
BY HAND, WANNA SEE

WHAT DID YOU DO? THEY’D ASK
OH, I JUST TLOD HER WHAT SHE MEANS TO ME.

AND EVEN TODAY ASAHLEY,
I STILL GET ALL EXCITED
AS I DID THAT DAY…

WHEN I THINK OF YOU
AS I DID NOW,
TELLING MY TALE,

I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU
DEAR SWEET LADY,
I’LL NEVER FORGET YOU.

LOVE ALWAYS
TARRY

 
Tanya Says:

Tarry, ou’re poems are so inspirational!
Thank so much, girl!

God bless*

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

Thank you for your poems, they really help me get through the day.

Have your sent me any emails today??? The reason why I am asking is because my email at work is down for same strange reason. I have tried the whole day to get mail but i can’t. I will let you know when it is back up and running.

Hope you are well Friend.

lots of Love always
Kerry
xxxx

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI KERRY AND TANYA

THANKS :)

KERRY I WAS JUST WONDER HOW U ARE, NOTHING SERIOUS,

SORRY FOR SPELLING ERRORS, TRYING NOT TO GET CAUGHT HERE :)

BUT I’M GLAD THE MESSAGE STILL COMES TRUE.

ASH, I REALLY, REALY DO MISS U.

TO THE CALLIE FAMILY, YOU IN MY PRAYERS

LOVE FOREVER
TARRY

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

I am doing ok. Have my up’s and down’s and some days are really hard to get through but It is lovily to have loving and caring people around me like yourself and the rest of the fab Ash Gang.

I am really missing Ash like crazy and I wish she was here but she is looking over us from above.

I look at her star at night and I just want to cry.

How are you doing Friend???

I will send you a mail tomorrow if my email is back and up and running.

Chat to you soon

To the Callie Family,Deon, Kids and close friends of Ash’s my thoughts and prayers are with you and not a day goes by where i don’t think of you guys. Hope you are coping and dealing with each day as it comes.

Lots of love always
Miss you loads Ash
Your dedicated Fan
Kerry
xxxx

 
Peggy Says:

Good morning to all of you.I hope that you are all fine.I wasn’t in the best of shape the past two days.I was missing Ash so much.I’m trying so hard to cope,but it’s so,so difficult.Tarry, thanx girl for the beautiful poems(you are really GIFTED).Kim,thanx for that beautiful song too.Kerry,I hope your email is up and running because I resent you that mail that you asked me for.Paul,thanx for your post.Sorry for replying only now but like I explained,I wasn’t feeling well.Here is my email address;margaretcloete@yahoo.com…Ash,I wish with all my heart and soul that you could still be with us.Ash fans,have a nice day and take care!

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Peggy,

Yes my email is back up and running.

I received your email and i have already replied to it.

I agree with your Friend, I too wish with all my heart and soul that Ash could be here. But i guess we will all get the pleasure of meeting her in that beautiful place we call heaven one day when it is our turn to go there.

You must have a Fab day yourself and we must all try and keep strong for Ash’s sake. I know it is hard but lets try.

Enjoy your day Fab Ash Gang and i will be thinking of all of you guys.

Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Peggy Says:

Hi Kerry,thank you so much for those inspiring words,it personally means alot to me Friend.I’m typing this now with tears in my eyes.Thanx for the email too…I appriciate it,I will mail you over the weekend…Love;Peggy

 
Tarry-anne Says:

MORNING GANG

I FEEL YOUR PAIN,

IT IS EXTREMELY DIFFICULT , BUT I’M PRAYING FOR ALL
FAMILY, FRIENDS AND FANS,

THESE PAST FEW DAYS HAS BEEN TEARFUL FOR ME AS I MISS ASH, MORE EACH PASSING DAY,

KEEP WELL GANG

LOVE
TARRY

 
Tarry-anne Says:

NOTHING’S CHANGED BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN
ONLY YOU, NOT BEING HERE, ASH

TIME, I HAVE FOUND TO BE NO HEALER,
MONTHS HAS PASSED
SINCE YOU WENT AWAY
AND, TIME DIDN’T EVEN TRY TO EASE MY PAIN

IN WORDS I TRY TO EXPLAIN,
I TRY TO RELEASE THE HEARTACHE
SOMEHOW I CAN’T STAND THE PAIN,

NEVER TO SEE YOU AGAIN
DRIVES ME INSANE

YOUR SUDDEN DEATH,
WAS A GREAT SHOCK
AND AFTER ALL THIS TIME,
DISBELIEF IS THE IMOTION
I HOLD INSIDE,
ALONG WITH COMPLETE SADDNESS
THATS REVEALED IN MY TEARS.

TO KNOW THAT IN SPIRIT
YOU’LL ALWAYS BE NEAR,
IN HEARTS AND MINDS
OF YOUR LOVED ONES DEAR.

BUT TIME, DOESN’T HEAL
IT NEVER WILL
CAUSE AFTER ALL THIS TIME,
EVEN NOW, ASHLEY..
I MISS YOU,
A GREAT DEAL :(

LOVE ALWAYS
TARRY

 
Peggy Says:

Hi Tarry,thank you girl for that lovely poem.I’ve needed that.Ash,I’m still struggling to let go of you.

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

Thanks once again for your poem.

i feel my fellow Ash fan’s pain too.

Hope you are feeling better.
Chat soon
Enjoy your weekend and keep strong.

Lots of love
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Peggy,

I know it is hard to let her go but sometime you will have to.

I have already let her go a few weeks go but not a day goes by where i don’t think of her, or the pain i am still feeling. Gosh i miss her like crazy.

Keep Strong Friend.

Looking forward to your email.
chat soon and enjoy your weekend.

Lots of love always
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kathleen Says:

Hey everyone!
I hope you are all doing ok!
Long time since I have been on this site.
Have to say that I have missed it here.

You know, I have come to a place where i’m really wondering what now. Just after Ashley’s passing I was one of those who went crazy getting people to vote for Ash to receive the Stars of Mzanzi award.

Our prayers were answered and so we honored her for her work. But, what now hey?

Now there is no more awards, no more special occasions, no more to look forward to. Am I making any sense here?

I would like to start something.
I want to declair each first monday of every new month Ashley Callie day.

This would be a day we could look forward to!
A day where we say a special prayer for her, her family, friends and to our fellow fans.

A special day we post all personal messages to her!

This is just an idea. I never want to let her memory get silent!

Ash, we all know that you are in a place of beauty, that you are tasting freedom and peace and glory every day. We know that you are looking down on us and that you know what is in our hearts.

We love you and the longing in our hearts will never go away because, above all else, we wish that you had more time with your family.

Wish you were here girl!

Miss you always

Your fan

Kathleen

 
kimsteenhuis Says:

Today im sitting thinking of the fact that its almost 3 months since Ash’s passing and then its her 1st birthday celebration on the 19 since her untimely passing. As a person who has had to go through something like this, believe me when i tell you that the 1st of everything after you looose someone so special is very hard. So i began paging through some peoms and sayings and came across this one.

Ash, this is especially for you and what legacy you left behind.

I try to speak, but no words come out
An angel we have lost, there is no doubt

Shen entered this world with soul and passion,
And gave us all her love and compassion.
Her beauty so extraordinary, her smile so warm.
Her kindness, her strength, that could put out a storm.

Our minds are weak, our hearts shattered.
The roses in the garden, are all scattered.
For you have touched the life of every living thing
Forever our hearts will have a sad song to sing.

A friend, a sister, a fan, a child that;s taken away.
In our hearts, you will stay.
An angel you were born and an angel you are.
God just wanted the best angel by far.

We love you Ashley and always will.
That special space in our hearts, you will always fill.
No matter how hard it is, we wil have to pull through.
Right now, its the least we can do for you.

These tears won’t stop running down my face.
It comes in buckets and all over the place.
My heart aches, oh its so sore.
I have never felt this way, never before.

Goodbye our sweet angel, now spread those wings and fly
May you rest in peace forever in the beautiful sky.

This memory i dedicate to Ash.

Graham, Claire, Lauren, John, my thoughts are with you always but at these testing times that lie ahead, they are even stronger than ever.I wish you all the strength you will all need and pray that you will receive it and beable to move forward in your own time. Take care and look after each other, and remember, Ash is by your side each and every minute of every day, and she wil never leave your sides. Her star shines brighter by the day.

 
Tanya Says:

Kathleen, I think it’s a great idea!
Ashley will never be forgotten, but we have to keep her spirit alive and celebrate all the good things she did for us all just by being who she was!
Isn’t it great to have this site where we can share our emotions and feelings? To have one anothers support?! How blessed are we to have each other, and all thanks to our Beloved Ashley!

To think Thursday will be 3months, and 4 days later, her 35th Birthday?!! We have to keep our prayers going for Ashley’s family, so God can grant them strength everyday!

Kim, Thank you for sharing that poem with us!
It’s so beautiful and so very true!

Take care eveyone
God bless*

 
Paul Says:

Hi Peggy,

Thanks for your reply. Great! I’ll be emailing you soon. I’m sorry to hear that you have not been feeling too good. How are you doing now? It is extremely difficult to let Ash go. I also haven’t been able to let her go … Yet. One day. You must see how beautiful my Ashley Callie Roses look today! Have you noticed at what an amazing scent they have? I think it’s great.

Hi Kathleen: I think your idea is brilliant! We should all follow it. What does the rest of the Ash Gang think of this?

You know, as Tanya says: It’s really an amazing comfort for us to come onto this beautiful site and share our comments and tell each other what is on our mind. I also think it’s amazing that we have all become good friends. It truly, once again, shows what an amazing person Ashley was.

Tarry – your poems are absolutely amazing! You are truly gifted. I’m sure you could get an award one day.

Kim, my friend, thanks so much for the poem and for your great, kind words.

You know, I cannot believe that it will be 3 months on the 15th, (next week … sob!), and worse still, her 35th Birthday. The 1st birthday that she is no longer here. It will not be easy, but with all the new friends, like yourself, around, we can just be there for each other.

It’s the one thing that I told Lauren & Mrs Callie. If we, as loyal fans, are this destroyed, what are they going through? And Lauren said it has been very difficult for them, but all the calls and messages has been a tremendous comfort to them. I feel so honoured to have spoken to them both.

Lauren, Mr & Mrs Callie, John, Deyon & Kids. I hope you are all doing okay. My thoughts and prayers are with you all, daily, but more especially in the next two weeks. I’ll be praying even harder as you approach difficult times ahead, including Ash’s birthday.

Ashley, I miss you more and more, and cannot believe that you are gone 3 months next week. I hope you can forgive me as I cannot let you go. Just yet …

Carpe Diem … In memory of the beautiful Ashley Callie!

Paul x

 
Peggy Says:

Hi Kathleen,that is such an excellent idea,all in Ash’s memory.Kim,thanks for that beautiful poem.If I think of how I was feeling this morning than I can just thank you all for the support through a positive comment or an inspiring poem.I feel so much better,thanx guys.Let us all spare a thought for the Callie family on Sunday especially Mrs Callie for it’s Mothers day.Ash,I know you’ve reached a better place but still I would give the world to see your face.Ash fans take care!

 
Peggy Says:

Hi Paul,thanx for your post.I appreciate it.I’m looking forward to your email because there is something I need to ask you about my Ashley Callie Rose.Enjoy the weekend. Thanx again for all of your support,that’s why this site is so comforting to me.

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Kathleen,

Nice to see you are back on the site.

Long time and no hear from you. I will email you soon.

How are you doing??? I am coping i guess. Just take each day as it comes.

I think that is a great idea and i will support it.

Chat soon
Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Kim,

Lovily poem, thank you.

Lots of love
Kerry

 
Peggy Says:

Morning to you all.Today,my heart really goes out to the Callie family.Mrs Callie,I want to wish you a happy Mothers day.I know this day is not gonna be easy for you but know this,you are in my thoughts and prayers.You’ve raised an amazing daughter.Someone that had such a big impact on our lives and someone we will never ever forget.Ash fans enjoy this special day with your mothers.Take care!

 
Tarry-anne Says:

MY PRAYER BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN
A MESSAGE FOR ASH

DEAR LORD, ITS TARRY HERE,
I’M OKAY, I THINK,
BUT I HAVE SOMETHING ON MY MIND,

YOU SEE, NOT SO LONG AGO,
A LOVED ONE, OF MINE
CAME HOME, TO YOU
FATHER,
ALL OF HEAVEN WAS GLAD THAT DAY,
‘MY DEAR ASHLEY, YPUR HOME TO STAY’
YOU MUST HAVE SAUD, I THINK.

BUT THAT VERY DAY, LORD
SHE LEFT HERE,
SUDDENLY, MAY I SAY,
IN GREAT SHOCK, WE ENDED
THAT DAY,

PLEASE UNDERSTAND
I’M NOT MAD, BUT LORD
I AM HURT, AND VERY, VERY SAD.

THAT OUR BELOVED
HAS FALLED ASLEEP, HERE,
I MEAN.

SO, IF THY CAN,
PLEASE LET HER KNOW
THAT SHE’S THOUGHT OF EACH PASSING DAY,
THAT WE, LOVED ONES HERE
MISS HER SO,
AND OFTEN WISH, SHE WAS STILL HERE

TELL HER, WE LOVE HER
AND ALWAYS WILL,
WE KNOW IT IS WELL WITH HER
CAUSE SHE’S
HOME, AWAY FROM ‘HOME’

WHAT SHE DID, SHE DID WELL
FOR IN OUR HEARTS HER MEMORY DWELL,

SHE TOUCHED OUR LIVES INDEED
TELL HER, I SAY THANBK YOU
AND HOPE TO SEE HER
IN HEAVEN ONE DAY
CAUSE, THATS WHERE
WE WILL, NOW MEET

OH, AND LORD
THANK YOU
FOR SENDING HER HERE
EVEN IF IT WAS ONLY A WHILE,
IT WAS GREAT, CAUSE..
CAUSE SHE’S REMEMBERED
AND NOT ONLY, FOR A WHILE.

AMEN.

 
Peggy Says:

Thank you so much Tarry for that beautiful poem.Once again you made me a proud Ash Fan.

 
Bianca - Anne P Moll Says:

I just visit the site’s now and again since it hurts so much these days especially with her birthday coming up …. it is true …. it is getting worse

Thinking of all

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

I write this now with tears in my eyes. Thank you for that beautiful prayer poem if i may call it that.

I miss her so much it hurts and just getting through the day these days is hard. I keep on thinking if we are feeling like this how is her family and the people who knew her well feeling.

I don’t know how we are every going to get through this.

To the Fab Ash Gang, keep strong and just remember you guys are always in my thoughts and prayers everyday.

Lots of love always
Your fellow Ash Fan forever and ever
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Kathleen Says:

Hey everyone!
Please go to the memorial site of snowlilly.
She has posted such a beautiful post today.

http://inmemoryofashleycallie.blogspot.com/

Please support her site. You can really feel the love and friendship she shared with Ash.

I promise, it will be worth your time.

 
Tanya Says:

That is such a beautiful site, Kathleen!!!
Everyone, you just HAVE to read it!!!!!
Snowlilly did a fantastic job! Thanks so much!

Take care and God bless*

 
Peggy Says:

Hi there everybody,Kathleen and Tanya,I agree with you, that site is so beautiful.Snowlilly you’ve done a great job.Thank you for sharing that post with us.I appreciate it so much.You should really feel honoured to have known such an amazing person.Ash,I miss you more and more as each day goes by.

 
LAM Says:

hey all
i don’t know if it’s just me, but i’m still in denial… and when i find myself looking at the newspaper clippings i get so sad…i constantly find myself not knowing how to cope. So many times i wake up and think…hey, the world is right…but then i know that’s not quite true.
as for isidingo…im REALLY disappointed, i mean, now they removed her beautiful face from the theme and her name is out of the credits aswell…
i saw jo de silva (natasha) on 7de Laan tonight, is that just a guest appearance or what? i’m just wondering if it is all connected..?

Hey Tarry, i can’t really add anything more, cause the other fans have all said it, but wow girl, you touch my heart deep down, and since i will never be able to write poems like that you get to put so many of my feelings into words. You truly are talented.

Paul, (you might have answered this before – i’m not sure) but did you ever get to meet Ash? And yes, you are quite blessed to have been able to talk to her mom and sister…thanks so much for sharing that.

I’m thinking of you all…you are always in my prayers…to the family and friends (and fans), if we (as fans) are still struggling like this, i have no idea what you guys are going through…just know that she was a little piece of heaven that was lent to us here on earth for a (too) short while. Thinking & praying for you all.

*take care guys*

 
LAM Says:

wow, what a post by snowlilly…i’m SO glad more people are confirming that Ash was not to blame…the truth will always come out…and can you believe all the stuff those kids placed in the papers just after it happened…it breaks my heart…the extent of her injuries and the being in a coma…i just can’t help but wonder – if it is your time to go, then it must happen…but why do you need to be in a coma for 6/7 more days? the only reason maybe is to give your loved ones some time to say goodbye? i really don’t know…and every time i see a Smart car, i can’t help but stare and wonder…

i swear i’m going insane here

 
LAM Says:

>>>IF SHE HAD WINGS SHE WOULD FLY AWAY AND ANOTHER DAY GOD WILL GIVE HER SOME<<<

and someone’s little girl was taken from the world…to light

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI EVERY ONE

FRANNI, THANK U THE BLOG IS BEAUTIFUL, MADE ME CRY GIRL, LEFT ME SILENT AS WELL.

IAM, THANK YOU FOR YOUR POST, I KNOW HOW U FEEL,

PAUL THANKS FOR YOU CALL MEANS ALOT TO ME

PEGGY AND KERRY, HOPE U OK..

TO EVERY ASH FAN HERE,

ASHLEY, IS ALIVE IN US, NEVER TO BE FOGOTTEN

LOVE
TARRY
xx

 
Natalie Le Clue Says:

Arent we the lucky ones? To have such a wonderful role model as Ashley, who we can try to emulate in our everyday lives. I, for one, count myself lucky to have such a great person’s example to follow.

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Nat,

I agree with you 100%, we are very lucky to have a role model like Ash.

Nice to see you are back.

Chat soon
Your Friend Always
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

I am doing fine. Feeling Much better today then i did yesterday. Had a hectic day. i will send you an email soon and explain.

How are you doing???

Chat soon
Your friend and fellow Ash Fan Always
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Paul,

Got your email and I will reply tonight and send it off to you tomorrow.

Hope you are doing fine Friend.

Chat soon
Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Peggy,

I got your email aswell and i will reply tonight and also send it off tomorrow.

Hope you are doing well.

Chat soon
Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey lam

thank you for your post.

I agree with you 100%. When I see a Smart Car like Ash had I also sit and wonder.

it is sad what those kids said in the papers but I have always believed that the truth will come out.

Chat soon
Your Fellow Ash FAn
Kerry
xxxx

 
Paul Says:

Hey Lam,

Hope you are doing ok. No, you are not the only one in denial. I also cannot believe it! And the fact that it will be 3 months tomorrow, and worse still, it would’ve been her 35th birthday tomorrow, breaks my heart even harder.

I’m certainly doing a lot better since making friends with all these amazing fellow Ash Fans, it’s been a real comfort to be able to speak about it.

I couldn’t agree more – whenever I see and/or drive behind that stupid smart car I feel sick to my core. I don’t know how mercedes-benz gets away with making that car!

Unfortunately, I never had the honour to have met Ashley. I always wanted to! I always wanted to go to her restaurant that she owned up until last year, La Vista Social Club, but never did, and that is one of the biggest regrets I’ll always have.

But I’m honoured and privileged to have spoken to Mrs Callie & to Lauren. What amazing ladies they are, and so incredibly friendly! There is not a day that I do not pray for them and their family. If we as fans are so shattered, what are they going through?

I am also very fortunate to have an autographed photo from Ash from the “Isidingo” fan club, which I’ll treasure always, and I have the Beautiful Ashley Callie Rose growing nicely in my garden.

To Lauren, Mr & Mrs Callie, Deyon & Kids. I’m praying even harder for you this week and next week. Tomorrow will be 3 months, and her birthday would’ve been on Monday. You are all constantly in my daily thoughts and prayers.

Ash Fans … stay strong & I’m thinking of you all!

Carpe Diem … In memory of Ashley Callie.

Paul.x

 
Paul Says:

Hi Peggy!

How are you doing? Hope you are well.

I will be emailing you tomorrow, my friend. Sorry, it’s been crazy times, and just haven’t had a chance.

Love,
Paul x

 
Tarry-anne Says:

ASH. U ALWAYS WITH US.

MR & MRS CALLIE, JOHN AND LAUREN, THINK OF YOU.
DAILY PRAYERS STILL GO OUT FOR YOU AND THE EXTENDED FAMILY. FRIENS AND FANS OF MY ROLEMODEL

YOU ALL IN MY THOUGHTS

REMEMBER ASH,

REMEMBER THAT SHE NOW SHINES MORE BRIGHTER THE STAR
SHE IS, FROM ABOVE.

I MISS YOU ASH,

LOVE FOREVER

 
Tanya Says:

TODAY, 3 MONTHS (For Ashley)

Today, 3 months ago
you were taken away from us
to a better place, we know
safely with God, in His loving arms!

We were crying
for you, were no more
You were smiling
“My work on earth now is done”

Today, 3 months already
but it still feels like Yesterday!
How can life be so cruel?
You were taken away from us
too soon!

I can still hear your voice
I know you’re not far away
I can still see you smiling
saying “Seize the day!”

When I get down on my knees
to say a little prayer,
I know I’m not alone….

I’m gazing at the big blue sky
Drowning in its bright blue eyes…
I know you’re still here
I know I’m not alone!

May God bless your beautiful soul
and know, you’ll never be forgotten!!

Love Always
Tanya*

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Fab Ash Gang,

Can’t believe it is 3 Months today. I am still in denial too. Just seems so unreal to me.

I am thinking of all of you guys today and you are always in my prayers.

to the Callie Family and Friends I am thinking of you guys aswell. I hope you guys are coping and just remember Ash is alive in all of us and will be forever.

Ash, I am missing you stacks and i always will and I wish you were here, but we will met one day.

Missing you Loads
Lots of love always
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI TANYA

THANKS FOR YOU BEAUTIFUL POST :)

KERRY, I FEEL U GIRL

 
Tarry-anne Says:

91 DAYS, LATER BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN
ASH, I STILL THINK OF YOU
15/5/08

TODAY BEGAN…
I THOUGHT OF YOU
AND HOW WONDERFUL IT WOULD BE
IF ONLY FOR A MOMENT
YOU, I COULD SEE.

SEE YOU SMILE,
JUST ONE MORE TIME,
HOW SWEET IT WOULD BE
IF I HAD A CHANCE TO HOLD YOU
EVEN JUST, A LITTLE WHILE

FOR NINETY ONE DAYS
THERE’S BEEN NO YOU,
ITS BEEN PAINFUL
SINCE TOMORROW
STARTED WITHOUT YOU,
AND LASTED THIS LONG.

NINRTY ONE DAYS,
HAS GONE BY
DEAR LOVED ONE
SINCE YOUR JOURNEY, HERE WAS DONE.

AFTER ALL THIS TIME
I STILL THINK OF YOU
SOMETIMES, AS THOUGH YOU ARE HERE,
I LOVE YOU
AND WILL ALWAYS HOLD YOU DEAR
FOR MANY MORE YEARS.

I MISS YOU ASHLEY :(
MY LADY OF INSPIRATION
LOVE ALWAYS
TARRY

 
Tanya Says:

Hai Tarry!
And thank you for the beautiful poem!

Take care and God bless*

 
still in shock! Says:

anyone know why snowlily’s blog ‘has been removed’

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry,

Thanks Friend for that lovely poem. I can’t believe it is 91 days.

Hope you are doing ok!!!!

Chat soon
Lots of love
Your friend and fellow Ash Fan
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Still in Shock,

I also want to know what happened to Franni’s Blog.

Why has that Beautiful blog been removed.

If anyone knows, please will you let us know.

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI EVERY ONE

ANY NEWS ON FRANNI
S BLOG

THANKS KERRY

 
Kathleen Says:

What the hell!
I saw that franny’s blog was deactivated
Please lets find out what happening!
We need that site up and running again no matter what. Franny worked so hard on it and has maintained it so wonderfully!

 
still in shock! Says:

hey Kathleen,Kerry and Tarry

I agree – Franny did a wonderful job on her blog and it should be back on-line. Can anyone contact Franny?

Missing Ash and Lee still, the emptiness in Isidingo and Barkers life is too much.

My prayers and wishes for strength and courage goes out to Ashley’s family and loved ones during these painful times.

 
Peggy Says:

Hi there Kerry,Tarry,Paul and all Ash fans,hope that you are all doing ok.I couldn’t let this day pass by without leaving my comment.I can’t believe it’s already 3 months that our sweet angel had left us.For me it’s still so unbelievable.I’m still trying to get over this tragedy.My thoughts and prayers are with Ash’s family,friends and loved ones.I just want to thank you again for your support guys.Are there any news on Franni’s blog?Tarry, thanx again girl, for that beautiful poem.Ash,I know you are shining down on us from heaven,but I still miss you like crazy!

 
Peggy Says:

Hi Paul,thank you for your post.Hope you’re fine.I’m not doing so ok but I’m hanging in there,still trying to cope.I understand your reason regarding the email.Kerry and Tarry,thanx for your emails too…I appreciate it.Guys,take care!

 
LAM Says:

what a year it has been… what an unreal 3 months it has been.
why would anyone want to remove that blog, except maybe for the fact that it was stated clearly in that blog that it was NOT Ash’s fault and that there were 5 witnesses… i’m sorry i just want to judge and blame them – it’s wrong, i know that, i’m just still angry for what happened and especially how they handled it.
So, are we going to do the first Monday of each month – thing? i think it’s a great idea, a way to keep coming back. i wonder if Ashley had any idea what an impact she had on so many lives, truly one of a kind.

Miss ya more each day.

Thinking and praying for you guys.

To Ash’s family and friends, you are all in my prayers, may you find strength through this difficult time.

*please keep safe guys*

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey iam,

I agree with your statement there about what a year it has been.

I can’t believe how many people have died this year in murder’s and accidents. truly very sad for me.

I miss Ash aswell. Not a day goes by where i don’t think of her.

Hope you are doing fine and thanks for your support.

Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry, Peggy, Paul and the rest of the Fab Ash Gang,

Hope you guys are doing ok.

Is there any news on Franni’s Blog yet????

Tarry, Thanks for your sms’es and emails Friend.

Peggy, Sorry for not replying to your email yet but I have jsut been busy at work this week.

Paul, Same goes for you Friend. I will reply to both of you guys tomorrow. I am working.

Chat soon
Keep Strong Guys
Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Tarry-anne Says:

Hi You FB ASH GANG

Hope u all well.

Kerry, thanks for the address, really appreciate it.

MISS U ASH, BUT I KNOW U SMILING IN HEAVEN, THANK YOU FOR YOUR POSITIVE IMPACT YOU HAD ON MY LIFE LOVE U FOREVER.

TARRY GOLD
:) z

 
Kerry Gray Says:

HEY TARRY,

MY PLEASURE, FRIEND.

PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT THEY SAY VIA EMAIL.

CHAT SOON
LOVE ALWAYS
KERRY
XXX

 
Kathleen Says:

Happy Birthday Ash
We miss you very much. Slowly, we are getting there.
We now know that should you have lived, you would never have been the same. You would not have had the life you deserve.

Now, you are in a better place and we will never deny you the peace and happiness you now have. For that, we love you too much!

So, today is your day! Shine and be happy, for we are happy because you touched our lives.

Have a fab day Ash!

 
Tanya Says:

Ashley, Happy Birthday to you!
Thank you, once again, for touching our lives, for leaving your footprints in our hearts to follow in!
We all miss you terribly, but we know you are in the best place ever, with God! You are even more blessed than us! We will never forget you, and we will always love you Ash!

Mr & Mrs Callie, Lauren, John, Deyon and kids: Thank you for sharing Ashley with us, thank you for giving us the best gift ever! Ashley left beautiful footprints behind, and we will sure follow in them!
Thank you for raising such a wonderful woman! You can be proud to say she’s your daughter!

Take care and may God bless you always!
Love Tanya*

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Kathleen and Tanya,

Thanks you goes so much for your beautiful posts.

Ash, This is your day and you must have a blast in heaven. Thanks you so much for leaving footprints in my heart and I will never ever forget you.

You will always be my number 1 Role model and no one can ever replace you.

You are in a better place now and i agree with Kathleen, if you had lived you would not have had the life you deserve but now you have. One day we will meet you in heaven in the arms of jesus.

To Mr and Mrs Callie, John, Lauren. Deon, kids and all who knew Ash, i am thinking of you guys today and you are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Miss you loads Ash.

Lots of love always
Kerry
xxxx

To my fellow Ash Fans, I am thinking of you guys aswell and lets all try and be strong for Ash’s Sake.

 
Tarry-anne Says:

HI ASH GANG

THINKING ABOUT YOU ALL TODDAY, THANKS FOR THE BEAUTIFUL MESSAGES, POEMS AND EVERYTHING ELSE.

MR & MRS CALLIE, JOHN, LAUREN, DEON AND KIDS, YOU ARE IN OUR THOUGHTS, PRAYERS AND HEARTS ALWAYS.

LET US ALL CELEBRATE ASHLEY, THE LOVING PERSON SHE WAS,
REMEMBER HER AS WE ALL KNEW HER, IT IS ASH’S DAY,

LOVE ALWAYS

DEDICATED AND LOYAL ASH FAN
TARRY

 
still in shock! Says:

35 years ago today, a star was born. This fact will never change, even tho she is no longer here physically. I think that if we are doing the first monday of every month dedicated to Ashley – it should also include some fond memories being shared by all those that know her personally – so that we can all smile and also have it as a memory of her.

Maybe the Administrator can somehow manage to get some memorable clips from the Isidingo scenes and play one every month – just to see her again in all her glory.

just a thought.

Happy birthday Ash – and thank you for all your contributions to the dramatic arts – you will never be forgotten.

To the family and loved ones of Ashley Callie – I pray that time will heal the wounds and that all the support and love from all Ashleys fans will dull the pain in your heart, for I know it can never go away completely.

lot of luv
Kim

 
Peggy Says:

Good day to you all!Hoping you are ok.Today is a very special day…it’s Ash’s 35th birthday,and for some reason, I’m feeling so,so sad today.I know that she is in a better place and that she’s watching over us but I wish that she could be here with us.I lit a candle this morning in loving memory of her and celebrating her birthday while I’m watching all the tributes(videos) that was made for her by her fans(tears are flowing).Ash, my beloved angel, I want to wish you a happy birthday and I know that you are celebrating it with your fellow angels and that you are shining down on us from heaven.I am thinking of you in a very special way today.To Ash’s family,friends and loved ones, you are also in my thoughts and prayers today…Ash Fans,take care!

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Still in shock (kim)

thanks for your post.

i will support you and i agree with the memory and clips thing.

I think it would be really nice.

Chat soon
Lots of love always
Your fellow ash fan
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Still in shock (kim)

thanks for your post.

i will support you and i agree with the memory and clips thing.

I think it would be really nice.

Chat soon
Lots of love always
Your fellow ash fan
Kerry
xxxx

 
still in shock! Says:

Thanks Kerry, I hope all the personal friends of Ash will start penning some of their favourite memories to share with all of us – who wish we too knew her personally.

right now the song ‘In the arms of an angel’ is playing on the radio and I think that is where Ashley is today.

looking forward to reading from all of you – I check this site everyday even tho I dont make that many posts – I am always reading everyone else’s thoughts.

lots of luv
Kim

 
Peggy Says:

Hi Kim and Kerry,I’m 100% with you on that one.Looking forward to the first ASHLEY CALLIE DAY.Ash,I still love and miss you so much,it hurts.I will never forget you and I’ll never let you out of my heart…Forgive me but I still don’t know how to let go of you…maybe I still need more time.

 
Peggy Says:

Hi there all fellow Ash Fans!I hope that you are all well.I feel a bit better than yesterday.I am so glad to be a part of keeping this website going.It means such alot to me,just to let my feelings known.And at the end of the day,we have to keep this site going in Ash’s memory.Thanx so much for yesterday’s beautiful and inspiring comments.Kerry and Tarry thanx also for your emails,I appreciate it.Paul,I hope that you are doing ok too.Ash,you were everything I wanted to be and so much more,that’s why I will cherish you forever and ever…You’re surely ONE OF A KIND.

 
A* Says:

is it possible to have the funeral on this site? still have not seen it due to loadshedding

 
snowlily Says:

Who is this Anonym, Have you no Shame, You obviously didn’t know Ashley or otherwise you would have known she had an accident. Get the F**CK of this site and don’t you dare come back. And you WRIDGELIAWL, GET THE F***ck off this site and stop writting absolute crap on here. THIS IS A MEMORIAL SITE TO THE MEMORY OF ASHLEY AND IF YOU CAN’T RESPECT THAT THEN GO SOMEWHERE ELSE WITH YOUR BULLSHIT AND YOUR CRAP.YOU HAVE JUST MESSED WITH SOMEONE YOU SHOUDN’T HAVE MESSED WITH. IF I EVER CATCH ANYONE WRITING CRAP ON THIS SITE AGAIN THERE WILL BE HELL TO PAY.IF YOU HAVE NOTHING GOOD TO SAY ABOUT ASHLEY, THEN DON’T SAY IT AT ALL AND STOP PUTTING ALL THESE WEBSITES ON THAT HAVE NO RELEVANCE TO ASHLEY OR THIS SITE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AVEY PISSED OFF FRIEND AND FAN OF ASHLEY

 
mthunzi Says:

nothing will be the same but we have to beleive in God no matter what.

 
still in shock! Says:

First Monday has come and gone – no memeories posted to make us smile…

THe first time I saw Ashley on Isidingo, I was mesmerised by her – tall, slender, graceful and so talented. I remember thinking wow – she is really something and I watched every night just to see her glide across our screens and entertain us with her amazing grace.

miss you Ash, thinking of you always.

Kim

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Kim,

Thanks for posting a comment. least it is not all this shit that has been posted lately.

Thank you for keeping this site going.

I don’t know if you have seen that there is an article about Ash and her Boyfriend Deon in this weeks YOU Magazine.

I read it last night and it is really sad especially the part about them starting a family next year and now that is not going to happen. when you read the article you can feel the pain and heartache that Deon is feeling.

I miss Ash so much adn i agree with you 100% about the first time I saw Ash on Isidingo, she was gorgorous and stunning.

Hope you are doing Well.

Chat soon
Lots of love
Your friend and fellow Ash fan
Kerry
xxx

 
Kathleen Says:

Hey Everyone!
I hope you are all doing ok.
As you all know, this site has been infiltrated by spam, but we are trying to contact the webmaster to fix it.

So plase, don’t let it intimidate you and lets keep posting and lifting up our dear Ash!

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Kathleen,

Thank you so much for that beautiful message.

Yes, we must keep this site going in loving memory of our dear Ash.

I am doing ok but still miss Ash like crazy and i don’t think this feeling of emptiness will ever go away.

How are you doing??? Did you get my email yesterday??? Hope i did not make you cross???

Chat soon
enjoy the rest of your day
Carpe diem
Your friend and fellow Ash fan
Kerry
xxxx

 
still in shock! Says:

Hi Kerry Gray,

thanks for letting us know about the YOU – I must get it.

Snowlily – is your blog up again? please re post the link.

really wish we could get some memories shared of Ash.

anyway, thanks to all that are making the effort to keep her memory alive on this site.

I wish these stupid spamers would just get a life and leave us alone.

lots of luv
Kim

 
LAMMIE Says:

why do bad things happen to good people…one thing i can say is that she is not seeing all the hate and anger in this world anymore.
Sorry i didn’t make the Ash day yesterday, but i was fully aware of it…yesterday angel by sarah mcclachlan played on highveld again and near the end of the song i heard an ambulance racing down the R21. I’ve really had a rough last two days…i miss this Lady of Grace so much. Thanks for the heads up about the YOU article. Hope you guys are all doing well…it’s been a bit quiet on this website.
Thinking of you all.
Have a great night
Love,
Lelani

 
Peggy Says:

Good day to you all,

Thanx Kathleen,Kerry,Kim and Lelani for your beautiful comments yesterday and for keeping this site going…like Lelani mentioned…the website is a bit quiet.

There is just something I have to share with you…
I had the most amazing dream about Ash on Saturday night.

She was looking absolutely stunning,,,she asked us fans to form an arch and then she walk through it,
after that she walk towards a beautiful sliding door,
but before she went out,she turned around with a big
smile on her face and said to us “I LOVE YOU”.It’s
still so unbelievable to me because it was so real.

Kerry,thanx too girl, for letting us know about the
You Magazine.I bought my copy yesterday…it’s really beautiful and sad at the same time.It had me into tears all over again.Kathleen, thanx to you too for helping to get rid of the spammers on this website.

Paul,what happend to you?I don’t understand why you are so quiet,after all you were the one reminding us
to keep this website going in Ash’s memory, maybe you have your reason.My Ashley Callie Rose is growing so
big and beautiful now.

Ash,I know that you in a better place,but still I
would give the world to see your face.I still love and miss you so very much.

To Ash’s family and loved ones,remember you in my
thoughts and prayers everyday.My fellow Ash Fans the same goes to you.

Keep well!

Love always
Peggy

 
truth Says:

Hi everyone.
Do not believe everything you read in the YOU magazine!

 
anonymous Says:

truth,

WHY DON’T U JUST GET OFF THIS SITE IF YOU HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO SAY!!!!!

WHY SHOULD WE NOT BELIEVE WHAT THE YOU SAYS???????

GET A LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 
Dix Says:

First time I have read this Site and also Loved Ashley and Isindingo but Dying is part of life and Ashley played a Character, just like any Actor/ Actress, plays a role according to the Script they are given—their Role does not reflect their real selves in real life “REALITY” just like Cherel played a really cruel Character, does not mean in real life she was that Character . So much is happening in this world today that I think you must try remeber all the people who are dying on a daily basis , good people like Ashley,Starvation , Xenophobia, etc, and just Accept Ashley Callie has gone and try move on as I see it is only a few of you who are on this Beautifull site but in order for you all to let go ,you need to stop relieving in the Past, you only putting yourself thru Sadness using up a lot of Energy —it is only a “Soapie” and I am not saying Ashley wasn’t a good person -in Real Life —-but most of you have never met or even knew her personally ,all you knew was the Character she was given to play –Just like Michelle Botes had her Character to play as does Barker—it is just a Character.

I feel you should have your say about how you felt about her and move on but by trying to keep a few of you on this site relieving the Past is going to make you perhaps Manic.

Let her Reast in Peace just like all the other Beautifull , Good , Kind people of this World.

Dix- Councilor/Therapist

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Dix,

I hear what you saying.

but thru this website we have met people, so the website is also used to commucate with them.

Yes,we must let ash go and i for one have. She was an amazing person and it was sad that she had to die the way she did but she will always be a part of our lives (family, friend and fans that is).

 
Kathleen Says:

Dear Dix
Thank you very much for your input.

This is a site open for everyone to pay tribute in their own way. Sharing is what we do here.

If you read through this website as you claimed you have, you will see the journey we have travelled up to this day.

If you are short of patients and need to let out some pshyco babble, please don’t do it here.

Regards
Kathleen

 
Gail Says:

Hey DIX, you are seriously wasting your time trying to talk sense to these strange people. I too was a fan, but of a beautiful wonderfully talented actress, who died tragically. I am devastated by the total waste of a beautiful extremely talented persons life. But hell, life goes on and innocent people die around us every day, these “rabid” fans all have a serious problem and dont want anyones help. I suggest you save your expertise for all the people who really need it – regards Gail

 
still in shock! Says:

Gail, that was not neccesary. There is no need to be insulting. If you think the people that keep the posts going on this site are ‘rabid’ then pray tell why are u reading the posts???!!!

Please, this is our site, we are not troubling anyone or being abusive to anyone, so please just respect our need to have this site to deal with the loss of someone we admired, adored and will never forget.

This webiste was created to support all the fans of ashley – all the negativity is not appreciated. Just repsect us and dont bother logging on here again – if we are so troubling to you. after the all the world wide wide is a huge place – dont log on where ur’ll not welcome.

If fact, I think you people have the ‘serious problem’ if u cannot just leave us alone and always feel the need to trash us.

Eveytime Isidingo is on, I think of Ashley and miss her. Thats what a huge impact she has had on my life.

Kim

 
still in shock! Says:

oops, I meant world wide WEB is a huge place….

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Kim

thank you so much for your comments.

yep, i agree these people (Dix and Gail) must leave this site and leave us alone too. They have not right to trash us and to be on this site at all.

this site is a memorial site to remember our beloved Ash adn to keep her memory alive. She knows what is going on down here and i just wonder what she thinks.

hope you are well.

Hey Kathleen, thanks for your comment too Friend.
Hope you are well aswell.

chat soon
Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN Says:

MZANSI’S STAR ACTRESS BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN
ASHLEY CALLIE,2008
9 JUNE 2008

THIS LADY WORKED HARD
SHE LIVED HER DREAM,
AN ACTRESS ADMIRED
A BUSINESS WOMAN RESPECTED

THIS LADY IS LOVED EVEN AFTER HER DEATH
AS SHE WAS LOVED BEFORE THE ACCIDENT,

TIME HAS PASSED,
BUT HER MEMORY STILL LAST,
I KNOW ASHLEY DIED BUT,
THE LOVE WE HAVE FOR
DID NOT…

REMEMBER, SHE IS SOMEONE’S DAUGHTER,
SHE’S SOMEONE’S SISTER
A LIFE PARTNER,
A COUSIN, NIECE, FRIEND AND COLLEGUE, IS SHE.
IF I MAY, SHE WAS MOMMY TO SOMEONE TOO
MAYBE NOT BIOLOGICALLY,
BUT SHE LOVED THOSE KIDS TOO, YOU KNOW.

TO ME, ASHLEY REMAINS A LADY OF INSPIRATION
THE REJMARKABLE, UNFORGETABLE PERSON
I LOVE…

AND, SHE IS OUR MZANSI STAR ACTRESS 2008
AND IN HER ABSENSE, HERE
SHE WILL CONTINUE TO SHINE,
EVEN BEYOND 2008

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Tarry my friend.

It is lovely to see you are back on the site.

Thank you so much for your uplifting poems once again.

i agree with you 100% that Ash will shine forever, way beyond 2008.

chat soon my friend
Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Peggy Says:

Hi there Tarry

Thanx my Friend for being back…and are you back.
You’ve just made my day and week with that lovely
poem.

As for Gail and Dix…my Fellow Ash Fans said it all.

From a loyal Ash Fan

Peggy

 
TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN Says:

hi guys

not really, i will post when i get to a pc, though,

to all the TRUE Ash fans, Ash lives in our hearts,

Thanks guys :)

A LOYAL ASHLEY CALLIE FAN FORVER
TARRY

 
Kathleen Says:

Good morning everyone!
Just took a moment to catch up on all the new posts.
The internet is huge guys. I’m a research assistant and I spend almost 80% of my time on the internet with research.

For each interest there is a world out there. Science fiction, cooking, home schooling, games, music, being a mom, being a dad, you name it.

In the beginning this site was created by a fan who took the initiative to create a place where the fans of Ashley Callie could show their support while she was fighting for her life in hospital.

None of us ever thought that she would not pull through. 15 February, this site became a site of remembrance, a site of showing support for her family and her friends.

Here, the fans could cry, mourne and share. On this site the Fab Ash Gan was born. A group of people who layed a cross at the crash site in honor of her. You should see it, its beautiful!

Yes, most of us didn’t know her personally, but that is not going to stop us from remembering her and her talent.

So, to everyone here who doesn’t feel “comfortable” amongst us, there is a whole universe out there for you to explore. This is our world.

Ashley, your fan always!

Kathleen

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Kathleen,

Very well said my friend. You ahve said it all in this post of yours.

this is our world and the people who don’t feel comfortable as you say must leave.

Yes, the fab Ash Gang was created here and Ash’s memorial cross is beautiful from the pic’s i have seen. I still want to goa dn view it in person.

Thank you my friend for keeping this site going and don’t you think it is nice that Tarry’s back???

Can i email you sometime????

Please reply
Chat soon
Lots of love always
Your friend and fellow Ash Fan
Kerry
xxxx

 
still in shock! Says:

the 4th month without Ash is creeping upon us. Still the pain at that thought is so deep. I still cant stop asking why why why!!!

I guess I just have to believe its cos god only wants the best up there!!

Ashley, I miss you and think of you everyday. I’ll always wish you were still here to brighten up our day!

LOL Kim

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Kim,

Yes, Friend i agree with you.

For me, not a day has gone by where i don’t think of Ash. I can’t believe it is 4 months without her here. It is so hard to believe how time is flying.

Hope you are well and try and keep strong for Ash’s sake.

lots of love always
Your friend and fellow Ash
Kerry
xxxxx

 
Kathleen Says:

Hey there everyone, Kerry and Still in Shock
I hope you are all doing better!
Pretoria is sooooo cold today, wish the summer will come now!

4 months hey! Wow!

Dear Ash
We think of you still! We miss your talent and your beauty. Most of all, we are at times really sad that you are not here with your family and friends.

We too have lost loved ones in our life before, and we know who at times missing them hurts.

At the end of the day, even they are comforted by the fact that you are in a beautyful place looking after them.

You take care ok!

Your fan always
me

 
Tarry-Anne Says:

YOU’RE STILL WITH ME ASHLEY..
BY TARRY-ANNE HOLOEIN
18/6/08

AFTER ALL THIS TIME
YOU ARE STILL ON MY MIND,
MONTHS HAS GONE BY
SINCE THE DAY
YOU, SO SILENTLY SAID GOODBYE,

I THINK ABOUT YOU OFTEN,
AND OFTEN, AT YOUR PICTURE, I JUST STARE
FEELS LIKE YOU JUST WENT TO VISIT SOMEWHERE
THAT SOON, YOU WILL BE HOME, HERE
WITH US WHO LOVE YOU DEAR.

HOW LOVELY WILL THAT BE
IF FOR A MOMOENT
YOU, WE COULD SEE

YOUR SPIRIT, WITH US ALWAYS
YOUR SOUL, AT PEACE

I KNOW, YOU FELL ASLEEP
TO WAKE UP IN HEAVEN’S GLORIOUS ETERNITY
BUT ONE THING REMAINS TRUE…

I LOVE YOU STILL
I MISS YOU DEARLY
AND AFTER ALL THIS TIME,
YOU STILL MY NUMBER ONE STAR
OF ALL TIMES,

SO I KNOW YOU IN HEAVEN, ASH…
SHINE! MY ANGEL, THE STAR THAT YOU ARE…
SHINE!

YOUR LOYAL FAN
TARRY FOREVER

 
Kathleen Says:

Hey Everyone
Yesterday I finally got a chance to watch the omnibus of Isidingo. I totally loved how frank chowed into Dineo. “i learned from the best. Rajesh and the late Leonie Haynes… if you are as good as she is you don’t need to do things illegally… You will never be half the woman that she is.”

I loved that!

Just wanted to share that with you

Hugs
LK

 
Peggy Says:

Yes, Kathleen I loved that part myself and it put
a big smile on my face.I can’t believe that it’s
already 5 months tomorrow that Ash is gone, but I
know that she will live on in our hearts forever.
After all,she is THE QUEEN OF HEARTS.

Keep well all Ash fans!

Love always

PC

 
still in shock! Says:

Hey there Kathleena and Peggy.

I must say I also enjoyed that part. also the part where Farrow told Dineo that Barker couldn’t be bothered with her antics since his real daughter is dead.

cant believe its 5 months – time is really flying by so quickly. Still seeems like a bad dream!

miss you Ashley, thinking of you always.

 
Kathleen Says:

Hey Peggy and Still in shock
5 months? Wow, thats so so wrong hey.
She should be here with her loved ones, showing Horizon deep what she is capable of, maybe even trying her had at a movie. Its just so wrong.

Anyways, just wanted to get this out there.

Regards

Kathleen

 
Dix Says:

Hi Ash Fans,

Just a note to Apologise if I offended anyone.

Please forgive me .

DIX

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Everyone,

It has been i real long time since i have posted a comment here.

Can’t believe it is 5 months since Ash died. Still can’t believe it and to me it seems so unreal. Still not a day that goes by were i don’t think of Ash. i count the days since she pasted on and it is 157 days. Can’t believe it.

Yes, i have been watching isidingo on and off. I really loved that part with farrow and frank and Dineo.

i saw in my tv plus that Vusi has a dream about Ash. I think it is this week. I will look tonight and let you guys know. i want to watch that because maybe they will have some flashbacks.

Hope you are all well.
Lots of love always
Your fellow ash fan
Kerry

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hello,

i was just wondering if there is any way to get the 10 year anniversary thing that Sabc 3 was playing for isidingo on this site. because i never saw it and i heard Ash was in there.

If anyone could help please let us know.

Thanks a million
Kerry

 
Kathleen Says:

Good morning everyone
I hope you are doing well!
Yesterday i watched the isidingo omnibus, and i was so pleased to see that although Lee is gone, her spirit still remains with all of them.

Not just a character larger than life, but also a person! Ash, we miss you, but we know that you there in heaven where you are brining smiles and happiness to those around you.

Regards
LK

 
Kathleen Says:

Hey everyone
Can you guys believe its august already
Time doesn’t stand still hey.
In a few weeks the winter will be over.
I hope that the winter we all feel will also be drawing to an end.

Ash, we miss you.
We know you are showing the angels in heaven how things are done.

Your fan always
me

 
Peggy Says:

Hi everyone

I hope that all of you out there are doing well.

Who can believe it guys, that it’s 6 months today!

I had my birthday on Monday but it wasn’t a happy one

for me.I never thought for one moment that I would

still feel the way I do.I still miss her so much.

Ash, I know that you are shining down on us from

heaven and I know we’ll be together…ONE SWEET DAY.

Guys take care!

From a devoted Ash fan always

Peggy

 
Paul Says:

Hi Peggy,

I absolutely agree! I cannot believe for a moment that it’s 6 months today ! SOB!

It seems as though it was just yesterday that Ashley was so tragically taken away from this earth.

As the months have gone by, I have dealt with her passing much better, and the fact that I’ve made so many friends, (through her)- has helped me a great deal.

I cannot and will not watch “Isidingo” anymore. The show has NEVER been the same since Ashley passed away.

I still say if we, as dedicated and heartbroken fans, are this upset, what is Ashley’s family going through?

Mr & Mrs Callie, Lauren, John, Deyon & kids – I’m still praying for you all, and there is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you all.

Ashley, we miss you, but know that you are in a better place. You were South Africa’s BEST ACTRESS!!!

Your fan, always!
Paul.

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey there everyone.

It is so lovely to see that the site is still going. I feel so terrible for not coming on here more often. I can’t believe how time is flying these days.

I heard today on the news on 94.7 that Ash’s trail starts today. I for one is hoping that we found out what happen that dreadful day and that Ash’s name can finally be cleared.

I still miss her very much and think of her everyday. She is watching us from above and will be until we meet one day in heaven.

Peggy, How are you doing?? Sorry i have not made contact for a while. I will send you an email and let you know how things are going.

Paul, How are you doing??? I will also send you an email. I am sorry for everything and hope you can forgive me.

To the family, friend and Isidingo Cast, I think of you guys always and try and be strong while the trail is on and may god’s blessing be with you always.

Ash, thanks for being my role model and for making such an impact on my life. I am trying to live life to the full everyday and follow your example.

Lots of love always
Miss you loads Ash
Your fan forever
Kerry
xxxxxx

 
Kathleen Says:

Hey everyone
This is the article i found about the court apearance

http://www.iol.co.za/index.php?set_id=1&click_id=15&art_id=vn20080830093417280C328842

Regards
Kathleen

 
Allison Says:

Hey Guys

I am 13 but I feel really bad about Ashley, I taped the Isidingo with Lee’s memorial on and I watch it quite often and every time I do I burst out crying. I have logged onto this website since Ash was in the crash and have checked it whenever I could and just reading it has made me feel better. I try to tell my friends how I am feeling but they think I’m stupid because I didn’t know her. I don’t know why but I am feeling really sad about her lately and I just want to share with people who understand!

Thanx for taking your time to read this, you guys are gr8 people!

 
Peggy Says:

Hi there Allison

Thank you so much for that beautiful comment girl,it
really inspired me.Once again it just shows the kind
of person Ash was.Lately I’m also feeling so sad when
I think of her and sometimes people around you don’t
understand how you feel but on this site we are there
for each other,like one big family.

Ash was just one awesome lady whoar will be remembered
forever by young and old.

Take care!

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Peggy and Allison,

You guys are so right, we are one big family and some people really don’t understand.

I miss Ash so much it really hurts. I can only imagine what her family and friends are going thru.

And now with her trial it must be even harder. I see the trial has been proponed to the 3 October. I wonder what is going to happen.

Peggy, Thanks for all your emails.

Chat soon
Keep strong
Lots of love always
your friend and fellow Ash fan
Kerry
xxxx

 
Allison Says:

Hi Peggy and Kerry

Thanks for responding to my message, I appreciate it.
I really wish we could do something for Ash’s family especially with the trial coming up in a month!
Wow, I want to say thanx to you guys and Tarry for all the beautiful poems and posts that you write, they are really inspirational!

Ashley, we really miss you and wish you were here..

Hope to chat soon
Allison

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hi Allison,

Thanks for your reply.

Yes, I 2 with that we could do something for Ash’s family. It must be very hard to go thru that pain all over again.

Tarry’s poems are very beautiful and inspirational. I wish she still had access to this site so she could carry on writing. I know she is still writing but the sad thing is she can’t share them with us.

To Ash’s family and friend and fellow fans, may God’s blessings and strength be with you forever and always and just remember that Ash is looking down on us and she is very proud.

Tell we meet her one day in heaven
Miss you loads Ash and wish you were here 2.

Lots of love always
Your fellow ash fan
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Peggy,

Where are you my friend????

Lots of love
Kerry
xxx

 
Allison Says:

Hey guys

Does anyone know where Paul got Lauren’s and Mrs Callie’s number a few months ago? Or any other way to contact them?

Thanks
Allison

 
Allison Says:

Hi guys

i was just wondering if I could get your E-mail addresses, If you dont mind otherwise its ok.

To Mr and Mrs Callie, Lauren, John and Deon I cant imagine how you guys are feeling and may God comfort you in this time!

Allison

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Allison

Thanks for the comment.

My email addresses are kerryg@iburst.co.za or kerry@advancedcrating.co.za. You can email me anytime you want.

What is your email address????

Hope you are well.
Chat soon
Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Allison Says:

Hey Kerry

Thanks for the addresses!
My email address is shana@koshkom.co.za
Can you believe its almost 7 months since Ash passed away!

Ash.. miss you more then ever!

Hope to chat soon
Allison

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Allison,

thanks for your email address too.

Yep, Can’t believe it is almost 7 months. It is my cousins birthday on the 15th of this month.

And it is my birthday on Friday. Can’t wait turning 20 so i am no longer a teen anymore.

Will email you soon. Ten to one i will use my kerryg email address because that is my personal address and i will send it at night when i am not at work.

Chat soon My fellow Ash fan and friend.
Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Allison Says:

Hey Kerry

I hope you had an awesome day!
Its also my birthday on the 15th so in a way its sad but in another way it rocks!

Hope you got my email

Chat soon
Allison

 
Peggy Says:

Hi to all of you guys

Can you believe that it’s 7 months today that Ash

is not with us anymore?Sometimes I still sak myself,

“why you Ash?”

That emptiness that I felt at that time is still

there.

I’m so glad that I bought me the Ashley Callie Rose,

it’s so beautiful and it reminds me of her always.

My wish at this moment,is just for this case to get

over and done with.

Allison,I hope you’ll have a wonderful b/day.May God

bless you!!!

Paul,thanx for all your emails and calls.Kerry,I’m

still waiting on yours.

Guys take care

Your fellow Ash fan

Peggy

 
MF Says:

Dear Ash

7 months have passed. It still seems so unreal. I feel as though any moment someone is going to tell me that its all been a big mistake and we can carry on with our lives, but deep down I know thats not going to happen. Time is definitely a healer,as they say, but some wounds never heal entirely. The tears have slowed but the pain is still the same.

I thought that bringing some of the things that belonged to you into our home would only serve as a painful reminder, but on the contrary, I have found it very comforting knowing that we are surrounded by things which have personal meaning to you.Our spare room has your distinct smell in it because of all the things of yours that we keep in there but unfortunately with time the scent is fading away.

L has been framing some photos of your most recent shoot and it is nice to see your face around the house. It is amazing how seeing a photo can evoke such different emotion depending on what kind of day one is having. Some days it makes me smile and other days it fills me with an emense feeling of sadness.

I really wish that you could see how many peoples lives you have touched with your talent. This website has been quite overwhelming for us. Even though we were well aware of your face being recognisable in public, I don’t think that any of us knew the extent to which you had such an impact on so many people.Even though the posts are not as frequent now, which is to be expected, it seems as though there are people who log on regularly just to see what is happening and to read other peoples thoughts and feelings.

We miss you so much and we know that there are plenty more tough times ahead for us. I promise you that I will take care of L and just know that we think about you all the time.

Love
MF

 
Paul Says:

Dearest Ashley,

Today it is 7 months since you were taking away so tragically.

Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you – I still cannot help but ask “Why Ash?”. Why did you go? But it’s a question we will never have answered.

I miss seeing you on “Isidingo” – you were the heart of the show, and I’m sorry, I cannot watch anymore. I haven’t watched since your Funeral that was done on the show. It has never been the same without you!

I also have the Ashley Callie Rose Bush growing beautifully in my garden. I love it! The rose itself is beautiful, and the scent is stunning. What a beautiful rose for SA’s BEST ACTRESS. It has developed a whole new branch, and I’ve had over 7 roses – just last week alone. With some new buds just recently formed.

I am very grateful that I have an Autographed Photo of you – I will treasure this photo forever. I just feel sad that I never got to meet you personally.

It was also an honour to have spoken to Lauren & Mrs Callie a few months ago.

I have also been to Deyon’s new Restaurant, and it is absolutely stunning! It is a beautiful restaurant.

MF, your post is really beautiful, and has left me sobbing.

Mr & Mrs Callie, Lauren, John, Deyon & Kids : My thoughts and prayers are with you each and everyday. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you all. If we, as fans, are so devastated, what must you all be going through?

Finally, I hope that JUSTICE WILL FINALLY BE SERVED when the case starts next month.

Ashley we miss you so very much!

Your heartsore FAN, always!

Paul.

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey Allison,

Well, First of all Happy Birthday. Quite amazing you share your birthday with my cousin. Haope you have an awesome day.

Can’t believe it is 7 months since you passed away Ash. Time is just going by so fast these days. I know you are still with us and you are watching us from above. Thanks for that beautiful star that i saw late on Friday night. I knew it was you, the brightest star in the sky. I guess that was your way of wishing me a happy birthday. Ash, i miss you so much, sometimes it really gets to much to bear.

Peggy, will email you soon my friend.Thanks for your voice message and sms. Thanks for being my friend.

Allison thanks for your email on my birthday. It really means alot to me.

Ash, miss you stacks.

To the family, friend and fellow ash fans You are in my thoughts and prayers always including you Paul.Paul, hope you are well.

Chat soon
Lots of love always
Kerry
xxxxxxxx

 
Candice Says:

Please check out the Sowetan website to pay tribute to Ash.

 
Kathleen Says:

Hey everyone
I hope everyone is doing well.
This week, lets keep Ash’s family and friends in our prayers as court procedings will resume on friday 03 October.

Ash, we still remember you!

Greetings to everyone!

Kathleen

 
Kerry Gray Says:

Hey kathleen,

Thanks for the reminder. Yes, will definitely keep them in my thoughts and prayers as I always do.

I am doing well and how are you doing???

Ash, We still love and miss very much and you will always be remembered by your fans.

Lots of love
Kerry
xxxx

 
Kathleen Says:

Hey Kerry
You are most welcome.
I’m glad you are doing well.
I’m going well too, thank you for asking.
Did you watch isidingo lately? What termoil hey?

I wonder what Lee would have done with the situation regarding Barker. Knowing what things was like between them just before she died, i think that we would have seen a side to her that we would not have expected.

Lol, maybe my mother is right hey. She swears that I’m totally too in to the soap.

Anyways, hope to hear from you soon.

Love and hugs

Kathleen

 
cuddles Says:

…may angels lead you in…
…when you’re feeling empty – keep me in your memory…

i’ve written on this website quite a few times, but scaled down since june…but recently my thoughts are SO with you girl, we all will miss you forever, you made me look at my life from a lot of different angles, and i thank you for that, cause i do believe it has changed me and made me a better person. i will continue praying for your heartbroken fans and family…and i thank God for the short, but full life he gave you, you touched thousands and i’m not sure you were even aware of it… you were a true example of how a humble person can make a huge differance…
WHAT AN INSPIRATION YOU STILL ARE TO ME

love&miss ya always ASH

 
Paul Says:

Dearest Ashley,

Although it has been 7 months since you were tragically taken from us, it still feels like yesterday that the dreadful news was announced. I was absolutely DEVASTATED! My Best Actress, my hero, the LIFE of “Isidingo”, stolen from us in such a cruel manner.

I must say that, through this website, I have made some amazing friends, and, deep down, I have you to thank for that. It just shows what an amazing person you were and how many lives you touched.

I must say that I’ve coped okay, but still cannot believe that you’re gone. I’ll always treasure the Autographed Photo I have of you, but will always regret that I never got to meet you.

Mr & Mrs Callie, Lauren, John, Deyon & Kids: What you must all be going through? There is not a single day goes by that I don’t think of you all, that I don’t pray for you all. I have been praying for you all this week, as we all know that the case resumes tomorrow.

I for one truly pray that JUSTICE will FINALLY BE SERVED TOMORROW!

Ashley, you ARE the BEST ACTRESS that South Africa has ever had, and I miss you so very, very much!

Rest in Peace …

Your fan, always!

Paul

 
snowlily Says:

Ashley, Thank you for being such an amazing peron, eventhough you were never really in my life you still touched a place in my heart. Thank you for letting me in and for letting me share a part of me with you. I know that you are happy and that you are watching over all of us. We all miss you terribly, but even though your death was sad some good did come out of your senseless tragedy. Lauren, Deyon, Mr and Mrs Callie i am thinking of you in your time of sadness.

As we say in the cat world Ashley you have passed safely over the rainbow bridge. God Bless you my angel and sleep tightt

LOve and LIght

a friend and fan

 
Mpho Says:

Hi every one. First of all I would like to apologise to Kathleen for not saying anything abt the sweet msg u sent me for my birthday on the 23rd of July. On that day I lost a loved one after she had given birth to a baby girl. I’ve been a bit out of it and I wasn’t able to deal with what had happened. Today I remembered that I have u guys to turn to. I somehow feel that we are now a family.

This website stands for Ashley’s beliefs and her humanity, I mean think abt it she’s loved people and in her passing she was able to bring us together. U know sometimes I catch myself thinking that I’ll see on Isidingo saying “daddy” and Barker saying what Leone’ and she have that slight grin she wud have on her face after she’d sealed a deal.

Teh truth is I miss her presence but I also thank her because it is because of her that I find comfort in u guys.

Thank You…….

 
Allison Says:

Hey everyone

Sorry I haven’t posted in such a long time, our internet wasn’t working until last Sunday.

Ash, I can’t believe its been 8 months, we all still really, really miss you! I know you are watching over everyone but i still wish you were here!

To Mr and Mrs Callie, John, Lauren, Deon and kids, my thoughts and prayers are with you and i hope that time will heal the pain.

Allison

 
emmie g Says:

Eight months now since u r gone my angel Lee..i sometimes can’t really believe that i will never see u anymore in Isidingo,my favourate soap..i remember the first time i heard the news of ur funeral on ITV that day..ooh i cried so much,it pains me so much everyday,but as a good christian i believe no matter what led to ur death,it is the wish of our great Father in heaven,He loved u more Lee..may He rests u in peace,Amen..i and my husband David, will always remember u bcoz..although we stil love Isidingo so much thesedays the soap is not the same….
With deepest sympathy,i send special condolences to the family of Callie(know that we r together in the pain of losing best actress Leone H.), all the Isidingo crew and Isidingo viewers…!will miss u during this Christmas season and New Year 2009 LEE sweetheart….EmmieG,TZ..
WISH ALL ISIDINGO FANS MERRY CHRISTMAS AND GOODLUCK IN THE COMING YEAR-2009…!MUCH BLESSINGS..!

 
Mands Says:

To the Callie Family,
My thoughts and prayers are with you over the festive season. No doubt this must be a very difficult time for you all. May 2009 give you the strength you all need to look too the future.

 
M.Kashaya Says:

If she was still alive she would be at large!
She entertained the world with her limitless talent!
Biggest fan!

 
Jill E. Coldren Says:

I had the privilege of living in South Africa for 3 years and have since moved back to the states where I am from. Last week I had a friend visit from S.A. and she told me of the events regarding Ashley. I was saddened by the news. Being overseas; I did not know. I always liked her and thought she was a very good actress. I miss Isidingo & now I’m sure everyone in S.A. misses her on the show. Condolences to all from an Isidingo & Ashley Callie fan in America.

 
Sheilla Muller Says:

May your soul rest in peace Ashley.What a lady,I absolutely love you and hope my daughter Leonie grows up to be as poise as you.U are dearly missed.

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